Marissa Michelle Manning
Grade 10
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And she's waiting patiently for the boy who's never going to come back.
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jun 1, 2011 12:52:29 GMT -8
Numb. She felt so numb. She hated feeling so numb. Everything she had lost. Losing her mother to murder. Losing her sister to suicide. Losing her dad to...whatever it was she had lost him to. And right now all she wanted to do was feel. To feel something. She didn't care what. She was desperate. Marissa had tried doin heroin with Matt. Hoping that it would help. But she hated it. And now she was drinking. Alot. And she had a problem with that. But she would never admit to that. She liked the feeling of forgetting everything. But it did not help with how numb she felt. She felt like she couldn't feel. And she needed to feel some sort of pain. And sort of pain.
She thought of one thing. The time when Matt had decided to whip her. And she hated it. She really did hate it. But now? That was something she was looking for. And she was not about to go find Matt and ask him to punish her. He had his own issues. But she had to find someone. Anyone. She did not care if it was a friend. Or if it was somebody who absolutely hated her. She wanted it bad. She wanted it hard. She wanted to be punished!
Maybe going to the Ravine, she would find someone who could help her out. She didn't know who. But there were tons of people there. There had to be at least one person who could give her what she needed. What she deserved.
Marissa never even bothered going to school that day. Oh, she left when she normally would as to not get into trouble by her dad. But she was not planning on going to school. She did not want to go. Instead, she just walked around for awhile. Before winding up at the Ravine.
And that was where Marissa had been all morning. And into the afternoon. Doing nothing but chilling by herself. Doing nothing but drinking beer. She enjoyed drinking. But she was still on the look out for somebody....She grabbed yet another beer as she sat down on a log, looking around at her surroundings.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 3, 2011 15:26:29 GMT -8
Why did he have to tell her? Hannah had already struggled to go to school. But when Jack approached her, he took all desire to attend. She just couldn't be around him. But if she told Marco that, she would have to tell him that Jack was the one who had tried to kill her. And no, she couldn't do that. Not when it would risk the lives of her family nd She had left at the normal time, but as soon as she was out of Jessa's eyesight, she left out the side door and headed to the ravine. When she got there, the seventeen year old stopped in her tracks "...Marissa?" she blinked She noticed the beer in her hand and scoffed "a little early to be drinking, isn't it?"
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Marissa Michelle Manning
Grade 10
Degrassi
And she's waiting patiently for the boy who's never going to come back.
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jun 6, 2011 0:41:36 GMT -8
Marissa looked down and took a sip of her beer before hearing a all too familiar voice. She scoffed and looked up. "And do I really care what time of day I should drink? No. No, not really." she shook her head and took another sip, before getting to her feet. "But, honestly? I can't really talk right now. I'm looking for someone. Anyone, really. To give me what I want...what I need."
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Post by Deleted on Jun 6, 2011 0:44:11 GMT -8
Hannah's eyes narrowed "what you need? Sounds like you're looking to go down the rabbit hole" she commented as she sat beside her. "come on, Marissa. When I said you were my stupid best friend, I didn't mean it. But taking that shit? That is stupid" she pointed out. "And I know I'm the queen of doing stupid things. But that doesn't make me a hypocrite. It makes me....an expert"
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Marissa Michelle Manning
Grade 10
Degrassi
And she's waiting patiently for the boy who's never going to come back.
Posts: 3,073
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jun 9, 2011 14:13:25 GMT -8
Marissa looked down at her beer and bit down on her bottom lip. She shook hr head. "I've been doing nothing but stupid things." She thought to herself for a moment. She couldn't help but wonder if Hannah would do it. After all, they were supposedly best friends. Isn't that what friends were for? She swallowed. "I was looking for someone to whip me. I need it. I really do..." She looked around.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 9, 2011 14:18:32 GMT -8
Hannah looked at her, stunned. "seriously? You came to the ravine for that?" she looked down, thinking about it. "why can't you just get in trouble with your dad? My dad would rip off his belt if I did something like....like stealing" she looked at her "course, you know your dad better than I do"
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Marissa Michelle Manning
Grade 10
Degrassi
And she's waiting patiently for the boy who's never going to come back.
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jun 10, 2011 0:06:13 GMT -8
Marissa looked down. "I-I thought abou that. But my dad's never really around." she shrugged. "But I have to find someone. I have to."
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Post by Deleted on Jun 10, 2011 0:13:25 GMT -8
Hannah nodded. "Yeah, I guess superstar dad wouldn't be all that great" lie. Hannah thought it would be awesome. she looked at her "what-what kind of stupid stuff have you done?" she asked, pondering it. Hey, she was her friend. What kind of friend would she be if she didn't help?
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Marissa Michelle Manning
Grade 10
Degrassi
And she's waiting patiently for the boy who's never going to come back.
Posts: 3,073
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jun 12, 2011 19:56:01 GMT -8
"I've been horrible, Hannah. I've been drinking. Not that I have a problem with it." Yeah, she did. But she would never admit to that. "I talk back to my father. I never forgave my mother. never. And now she's gone. I-I wasn't there to notice my sister's pain. I-I wasn't there to stop her. All I cared about was myself."
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Post by Deleted on Jun 12, 2011 20:25:12 GMT -8
Hannah sighed "god, you sound like me. Ok. I'll make you a deal. I'll....spank you, if you'll do it to me sometime in the future. You're not the only one who's screwed up, you know?" she nodded, looking down
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Marissa Michelle Manning
Grade 10
Degrassi
And she's waiting patiently for the boy who's never going to come back.
Posts: 3,073
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jun 12, 2011 22:11:17 GMT -8
"I guess we're both pretty screwed up." Marissa sighed and looked down. "But hey, what are friends for? I'll do it anytime you want me too."
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Post by Deleted on Jun 12, 2011 22:15:32 GMT -8
Hannah bit her lip "so how do I do this? Do you have something in mind?" she asked, biting her lip. She was confused and it didn't feel good. She wanted to be able to be organized, knowing exactly what she was doing
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Marissa Michelle Manning
Grade 10
Degrassi
And she's waiting patiently for the boy who's never going to come back.
Posts: 3,073
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jun 12, 2011 23:38:48 GMT -8
"I can help you. I have some money on me. We should stop at the store and get some supplies." marissa thought for a moment. "Okay. We need to grab a paddle, a flogger, and a strap. We can stop at the park and get a switch." Oh, she was looking for a worse whipping than her father ever gave her. Then find some place to go. And whip me. As hard as you can. And yell at me. Lecture me. Tell me that I am stupid for what I am doing. You think you can do that?"
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Post by Deleted on Jun 12, 2011 23:42:48 GMT -8
Hannah looked at her. "I spent most of my life being called worse names than you can imagine. Before my parents adopted me, I didn't know there was a decent couple even around. so yeah. I can do that. If you can do it to me" she bit her lip "what about, um...limitations?"
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Marissa Michelle Manning
Grade 10
Degrassi
And she's waiting patiently for the boy who's never going to come back.
Posts: 3,073
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jun 13, 2011 0:24:27 GMT -8
"Limitations...Uhm-" Marissa looked down, thinking about that. She honestly did not really have any. She just wanted it to hurt. Alot. "Don't make me bleed. Other than that, I don't have any."
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