Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jan 29, 2013 22:04:39 GMT -8
  
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Megan knew that it would only come out sooner or later. Maybe sooner would be better. But how could she tell her dad, the man that had given her first real home, that she was pregnant? That might break his heart. And Megan... she did not want to hurt anyone. But he needed to know. It was the only way that he would understand why she was leaving, leaving everything behind her, in her past. For the past week, since the talk that she had at the lake with Mallory, she had been trying to talk to her dad. But every single time, she would lose her nerve or just end up saying something completely stupid. Something that made absolutely no sense at all. No, she just could not tell him. Not to his face, that was. No, Megan knew exactly what she would have to do. JJ knew that she was pregnant, along with Mallory. Even Larisa knew. Now, her father needed to know as well. It was finally time.
So, she sat down at her desk the night before, her bedroom door locked. She just needed peace and quiet. She did not want to be disturbed. Or to be found out before she got the chance to leave. And after she had written the note, grabbed her crutches and stood up carefully, grabbing her back pack and packing it with necessities. Clothes, her mother's necklace (the one that her daddy broke when she made him mad months ago. But she just could not part with it. It was the only thing that she had of her mother. It was a way for her to remember her own mother.
And everything was all set, ready for her to leave. Now she just wanted to wait until everyone was out of the house so that she can leave undetected. And ater finishing up, went to bed, not even unlocking her door.
The next morning, she woke to no one home. She was not going to school. She told her dad the night before that she just was not feeling all that well and really just wanted to stay home. She took in a deep breath and quickly but carefully got dressed. And then she taped the note to her bedroom door. A note that read, “Dear family, but expecially to Daddy, I am so sorry to be doing this but I do not deserve a wonderful family like you guys. Daddy, I am pregnant. And instead of telling you to your face and hearing those words 'get out', I figured that this would spare me the pain and heartache. But then again, maybe I am wrong. Maybe this will still hurt like Hell. I do want you to know that I love you, all of you, so very much. Really do. You were the first place I could call home. The first place I had truly felt loved. But let's face it, this had not exactly been the best year. I hate causing you trouble and after what had happened, I just-I need to get away, to get out of here. After almost dying, and then what Jonathon-I just can't. So I have decided that I needed to leave home, because of my pregnancy. I just thought I would spare you from having to kick me out, like you did with Hannah. Remember? You kicking her out because she was pregnant. I just wanted to spare you, daddy. And I want you to know, I did not want this. I never wanted this. I wanted to be a good girl. Like the daughter you should have had, had deserved. But-I'm not. I'm twisted and fucked up. You would just be better off without me. Besides, how could you want anything in your house that might remind you of Jonathon? This pregnancy, this baby? I feel so gross and this was just something that I could not tell you in person. I tried, but couldn't. But I could not kill the baby. I tried to go to the clinic; I tried to get an abortion, but I couldn't daddy. I'm so sorry. Because it would not be fair to the child. It did not have any choice in the matter. And there is one more thing, daddy, before I leave your life. I've also dropped out of school. I'm never going back there. I love you daddy. Tell everyone that I love them to and that I am so very sorry. Love always, Banana Bear (a.k.a Megan J Del Rossi)”
Mallory had suggested abortion. After all, she had been raped. She had every right to get an abortion. But Megan just could not get herself to go through with it. That had been two days ago. If she was not going to get an abortion, then her family would find out eventually.
Grabbing her crutches and her backpack, along with her purse, she slowly made her way down the stairs and out the front door, towards the bus stop. She pulled out the money and when the bus came to a stop, she carefully got on, giving the driver her money. She sat down in the front seat, waiting for the stop that would take her to the train station. She stared outside the window, watching the scenery just pass her by as her eyes began to fill up with tears. She hated to think of leaving the only family that she ever truly had, but it was the right thing to do. Wasn't it? Yes, she had convinced herself that it was.
Finally, the bus reached where she needed to get off and she got off carefully. She walked down the street, to the bus station, and up to the front desk. “Excuse me, I would like a ticket for the next train out of Toronto. I don't care where. Just the next one that leaves here is fine by me. I 'd rather be anywhere but here.”
The lady nodded and looked up. “Hey, aren't you that girl who-”
Megan shook her head. “You have the wrong person.”
“No, it's you. I'm sure. The one from the papers. A Sniper victim. Oh my god, and lived to tell the tell.”
“Just-get me the ticket.”
She nodded. “Okay, okay.” She looked on her computer screen. “There's a train leaving in 45 minutes that heads to Minnesota.”
“I'll take it.”
“Okay, then.” She looked back up at her. “So what was it like?”
“What was what like?” Megan asked rudely.
“Being a victim of the Sniper.”
“Are you that fucking stupid? It was the worst night of my life. So bad, that I wished and still do wish that I were dead. And if you want to know what it is like so bad, why don't you go fucking find him yourself. And then you will find out. Now give me the damn ticket and stop acting like a bitch!”
Her eyes widened and she quickly took Megan's money and handed her her ticket without saying another word. And with that, Megan scoffed and turned on her heel, taking a seat in a chair. And when the announcement about boarding the train came, she was glad to finally be getting out of Toronto. She grabbed her things and her crutches and stood up, walking over to the train. She got on, showing her ticket, and walked to the very back of the train, sitting by the window.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 29, 2013 22:16:41 GMT -8
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Hannah was the one who got the note. After learning that she wasn't graduating, the girl went home pissed and knocked on Megan's door. ''Hey, you wanna help me beat up Snyder? You can whack him with your crutches'' she half-joked. But when she didn't get an answer, she slowly opened the door. Part of her expected to find a dead sister. Not because she thought Megan would actually do that, but because of Jack. Instead, she found the note. She sat on her bed and read it, tears coming to her eyes. Shaking her head, she pulled out her phone and called Ben.
''Talk to me.''
''Remember how you said you'd make everything up to me? Here's your chance. Megan's gone. She's pregnant and left because she thought you were gonna kick her out like me.''
''Shit. Hannah-''
''Don't. Ok? Just go find her. Knowing her, she's on a train. Megan likes the train. I'll see you both when you get home. Bye.''
Ben stared down at his phone before making excuse and leaving work. He wasn't even going to waste time going to his car. Instead, he hailed a cab, telling the driver to go as fast as he could. God please let me find her.
Once inside, he looked around frantically. Finally, he ran to the ticket counter. ''Girl in crutches. Where is she?'' the girl pointed to a train. He turned just in time. The conductor was doing a last call. He couldn't let that train leave. So, he did what any irrational person would do. He ran on the train, yelling with all his might. ''Fire!!!''
The conductor rushed over. ''Where?''
Where? Oh, shit. That was a good question. Finally, after a brief pause, Ben pulled out a lighter and lit an empty seat on fire. ''There. Fire. See? Fire! Everybody out!''
The man was furious. Ben knew that he didn't have long before cops would be called. Thankfully, it did work. The conductor ordered everyone off the train. Ben hopped back off, keeping an eye out for her. At least he got her off, even if he had to get everyone else off too.
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jan 29, 2013 23:24:55 GMT -8
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Fire. That was the word that had broke Megan out of her thoughts, her trance. Was that...? No, it couldn't be. Sneakily, she peaked around the corner but quickly jumped back. Oh god, it was her father. No, she could not let him see her. He would make her go home. Didn't he even read her letter? Didn't he know that she was pregnant? Pregnant with Jonathon's child? His ex-boyfriends child? Didn't her father know that all she was was a tramp? That's all Megan saw herself as now. And didn't he know that she had quit school completely? So why was he here then? She peaked around the seat again and suddenly noticed the flame...from a lighter? Okay, her dad had definitely completely lost it all.
No, Megan did not care if everyone was being told to get off the train. Maybe if she did not move then her dad would not see her. Maybe he will think that he had missed her on a different train. Then maybe he can get over the loss of a daughter and finally just move on with his own life. No, Megan was not going to budge. She would stay were she was, hidden from sight. She did not care if the train was on fire. Really, it was the perfect way to end things. After all, she really did not want to live anymore, anyhow? So why even bother getting home? Only to go back home and get some lecture from her father?
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Post by Deleted on Feb 10, 2013 23:58:12 GMT -8
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As everyone shuffled off, Ben's eyes narrowed. Where was she? He started to get back on, but was stopped. ''Oh, no you don't!''
What could he do? His little girl was on that train! ''Hey, man, I'm a cop! The Sniper is here, and is going to kill someone on that train! You have a minor on that train, a girl on crutches. What are you going to do if she dies on your train? '' it was working. He could hear people panicking.
The man paled. ''What should I do?''
''Cancel today's trains so this psycho cant leave''
Nodding, he set to work while ushering people away. With the coast clear, Ben got on the train. It didn't take long to spot the crutches. ''I'm probably going to jail. Or to hell. Either way, I gotta make sure my baby girl isn't making a mistake first. You can't go, Megan'' his voice was begging her.
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Feb 13, 2013 19:08:18 GMT -8
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Making a mistake? Megan did not consider this the mistake in her life. Maybe her biggest mistake was ever being born. Or not just letting her father kill her when he had the chance. Either way, she should not have been alive right now. She should have died a long time ago. No, this was not Mega's mistake. But as she heard her father's voice, tears spilled from her eyes and she let out a small whimper. “No mistake...” she whispered so softly that she could barely even hear herself. Carefully, she sat back on the seat after getting off of the floor and looked in the direction of her father, tears blurring her vision. She shook her head. “I'm a bad girl. Let me go, daddy. I need to be punished for this.”
Megan thought she needed to be punished for allowing Jonathon to impregnate her. She deserved it. She hated herself for allowing this too happen, for being to chicken to get a damn abortion. “No!” she spoke louder as her father came closer. “Stay away from me! Leave me alone!” she tried to feel her voice with anger, with hate, but it did not come out that way. It came out in more of a pleading tone of voice. “You don't know! You should! Didn't you read? I'm a bad girl, a dirty girl. I'm disgusting, a slut. I don't deserve your kindness. I deserve death. Just kill me now. Please. I can't do this anymore, daddy.”
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Post by Deleted on Feb 13, 2013 19:18:12 GMT -8
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Ben listened to her, and before long, he was crying. Chicken? He was anti-abortion. He was glad she didn't do it. ''No, baby,” he said, sobbing. ''It doesn't matter if you're pregnant with a hundred kids. It doesn't matter who the father is.'' He reached down, pulling her up in his arms to hold her. ''You're not. And if anyone says you are, I'll kick their ass. You're beautiful. And I am so lucky that you are my daughter.''
he stroked her hair. ''You don't need to be punished. But if I let you go, I do. Any father who can let his daughter destroy her life isn't a man, he's a sad, little boy. And I was punched around for a while, and I did try to end it. But I ain't no boy. I'm a man. And you're the gem who helped me be strong again. You helped me leave him. And now, look where he is. In jail. Megan, we did that. If we could do that, we can get through this''
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Feb 13, 2013 19:20:28 GMT -8
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Megan's eyes began to fill up with tears. Could they? Could they honestly get through this? Megan did not know this time. Everytime she would look at this child, she would only be able to think of Jonathon. That, she was sure of. No, Megan did not want to punish this child for something it could not control. But that did not stop Megan from wanting to kill herself. She knew that she would do just that. One reason why she was leaving. Because then no one would be able to save her and no one would know that Megan Del Rossi was dead. This was not suppose to happen. Her dad was not suppose to find her before she got the chance to leave town.
“Daddy...” she choked out. “Didn't you read it? Read my note? You should know, this is not something we will be able to get through. Not this time. I'm so sorry.” The tears finally began falling down her cheeks. She closed her eyes and leaned her head against her dad's chest and just began sobbing. “It hurts so much, everyday. Just make this pain go away.” she cried.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 13, 2013 19:37:51 GMT -8
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Ben would give anything to protect her, make every sort of pain go away. As soon as he saw Matt's story on the news, a transformation came over him. Ben became a father. He learned to tell what was going on, even if the kid didn't want to say. And here, Ben's instincts were telling him that she wasn't just running. Sooner or later, there would be a story of a Jane Doe who drowned or jumped or took a bottle of pills. And Ben would see her and damn himself for letting her go. No. Not happening. Ben held her tight. ''Megan. No. You're wrong. And do you want to know why? Because you have a massive support system. If you want this baby, then we will make it work. I promise. You have 8 babysitters. And, if you don't, we will find the best home. But, if you allow yourself to have this baby, you are going to look into its eyes, and you won't see Jonathan or your dad or even the the Sniper. You will see the one person who will never leave you.''
Ben's crying was uncontrollable. He had never shed so many tears. But she was right about one thing. There had been so much that had happened to their family. Even he was ready to hide. But he couldn't. He had to be the adult here. ''We need you at home, Megan. Without you, we're not even a whole family. You chose us when you said we could adopt you. You don't get to unchoose us. And if you need a reason to go on living, there's eight right there.'' He could hear a commotion outside and swallowed, looking at her. ''We have to go. I could end up in jail if we stay. But we don't have to go home. We can go get my car, and we can go anywhere you want. What do you say, Princess?”
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Feb 13, 2013 19:43:18 GMT -8
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Go home? Didn't have to? No, Megan wanted to go home. She needed to. If she could not get the Hell out of Toronto, Then she would rather just go back home. Megan wrapped her arms tighter around her dad's neck and buried her face in his chest. "Just wanna go home, daddy. Just wanna go home now. Please take me home." She whimpered out. She could feel her entire body shaking.
"Do you forgive me, daddy?" she asked, in a soft whimper, pulling away and looking up at him. "Please forgive me. Please don't hate me, daddy. I am sorry." She sat up a little and tried to reach for her crutches. She planned on just walking by herself. "Let's go home..."
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Post by Deleted on Feb 13, 2013 19:58:47 GMT -8
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She wanted to go home? Ben released the hug, leaning over the seats and checking the window. What he saw made him nervous. There were cops. Shit. If they weren't careful, then he wouldn't be going anywhere except jail. He had brought this on himself. He was the one who lied. He probably deserved to go to jail. But that didn't make him want to go any more. Sighing, he looked around. There had to be an emergency exit. Picking her up, he nodded to her crutches. ''Grab them. And trust me.'' If she could. Ben never noticed this, but every time he told Megan to trust him, he wound up doing something crazy. Then again, when didn't he do something crazy? Ben was the very definition of crazy. And in most cases, he dragged someone along. Like the time he and Marco robbed a bank when they were in high school. If it weren't for Ben, Marco would never have done anything like that.
Though, Ben did learn from his mistakes. He stopped dealing with drug dealers after having to rob that bank to repay a debt. And even though he didn't exactly always obey the law, he was much safer than when he was a kid. And he didn't make the same mistake twice. Though, this particular incident wasn't exactly a mistake. He did what he felt was necessary to get to his daughter. He would do anything for his kids. And while he knew that wasn't how Marco would have handled it, Ben didn't think he was wrong. After all, as long as he reached his end goal, then he did the right thing. And, with her in his arms, it was a pretty good indication that he had reached his goal.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Feb 13, 2013 20:02:53 GMT -8
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Trust. There was a time when Megan would have trusted no one. Never. But the girl did have a family now. She had people that truly loved her. That tried to keep her safe. That never hurt her, abused her. Like in the past. "Always..." she whispered. "You're my daddy. I trust you...with my life." She grabbed her crutches and clung tightly to her dad, burying her head in his shoulder.
Megan had no idea what her dad was about to do. Actually, she was confused at what was even going on around. But she would always trust her dad. Even if everyone knew that he should not be trusted at some point in thw future. She would simply trust him because he's her daddy. Her hero. Ben had saved her and protected her. She liked to think that she's his little princess. Like in those fairy tales.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Feb 27, 2013 23:35:38 GMT -8
Megan had never stopped trusting her dad. Even when he was with Jonathon,. She just worried that he would have been mad at her for allowing Jonathon to do those things to her. And now how would he react? He did read the whole letter, hadn't he? She thought he did but maybe not. Maybe he did not know that this was Jonathon's kid. “I can do that, daddy dearest.” she gave him an innocent smile before just dropping her crutches down. They may just have to leave them behind. She was sure of that. But that really was not such a big deal. She did not mind being carried by her daddy. She felt safe in his arms.
When her dad lifted her up, Megan climbed up onto the roof and stayed on her stomach like her daddy had told her to do. She grabbed hold of the emergency door, waiting for her daddy. Hopefully they would not] get caught. Megan did not want her daddy going to jail. Not now. She needed him at this time. Really needed him. More than ever.
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