Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you cant see the pain someone feels.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jan 28, 2013 15:46:13 GMT -8
& I WAKE UP EVERY EVENING WITH A BIG SMILE ON MY FACE ( and it never seems out of place )
Life has not been easy for Megan Del Rossi. She was so tired of living her days in fear. Things would have to change. She would have to do something. And Megan knew exactly were to starts. Jonathon. Megan hated the idea of having to confront the man, the man whom impregnated. What else could she do, though? Well, she would just have to suck it up. What was the worst that he could do? Jonathon could not hurt her. He was in jail. But Megan was not so sure that she was strong enough to go on her own. Maybe she could ask Mallory. What were best friends for, right? Megan was not sure what to do about the whole dropping out of school situation. She had only just recently talked to Hazel. She did not want to leave, but how can she possibly handle staying in Degrassi. After everything. Well, first thing was first. She would need to confront Jonathon. He could not hurt her now. So, she believed. She did not want to go back to school just get, but Megan needed to talk to Mallory. Not later. Right now. Megan decided to find Mallory during her lunch period. When taking the bus up to the school, Megan gotten off at her stop and immediately rushed into the school. She walked into the school cafeteria and looked around, finally spotting her best friends. She rushed over. "Mallory, I needed to talk to you about something." But Megan quickly kept going, not giving her friend much of a chance to respond. "Look, I need your help. I An So tired of living everyday in fear, So I Plan on going up to the jail. Today. Right now. I need to see him, to out what he did to me behind me." She quickly spoke, subconsciously placing a hand on her stomach. "I need to do this. But I don't want to have to do this alone. Please, leave me. Go up there with me. Right now."
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Post by Deleted on Jan 28, 2013 16:05:12 GMT -8
let's leave no words unspokenAND SAVE REGRETS FOR THE BROKEN. [/font] Will you even look back when you think of me?[/center] All I want is a place to call my own && mend the hearts of everyone who feels alone
Mallory stood beside her locker, watching as Grace went through it. It was neatly organized, very easy to search. ''Hey, careful with that!'' she yelped as she took the necklace Grace was holding up. ''Aidan gave it to me for Christmas. I don't want the chain tangled up.'' She really needed a new chain. She had worn it every day since he had given it to her. God, he was so sweet. He was like, the best boyfriend ever. One time, he even got a picnic basket and filled it with all different foods and took her to her favorite place. Of course, she relayed all this to Grace as the cop searched her locker. She wasn't worried. There wasn't anything that could be found to get her in trouble. She knew what they were looking for-Sniper stuff. And they wouldn't find it in her locker. The bell rang as Grace finished up and thanked her, allowing her to go to lunch. It was weird. It kind of felt like she had skipped class, even though it wasn't her choice. The cops had been doing random locker searches for the past week, and they were bound to get to her sometime. As she entered the cafeteria, she noticed Jack watching her. She wondered if anyone had gone through his locker. It probably didn't matter, though. A guy 10 like that was too smart to have anything in his locker. Mallory got in line for lunch, in a hurry to eat so she could go back to the library for research. Her six month anniversary with Aidan was coming up in the beginning of May. And she wanted to do something epic for him. Something so great, he would never even think about wanting anyone else- not even Desiree. Normally, she didn't have a problem with her. But lately? Mallory hated her. And it was because of her look. How could Aidan not be attracted? She looked hot. And Mal just knew, that the more he was around Desiree, the more he would realize what a mistake he had made, choosing to date a nerd like her. And Mallory didn't think she could stand to lose him. She had to do something to save her relationship. She knew she wasn't ready to do it. But, there had to be other things she could do than just sex, right?
Mal paid for her lunch and sat down by herself. She didn't know where he was. Probably off with her. The teenager sighed and stabbed her meatloaf with her knife, making a disgusted look. Was this even edible? She didn't think it was. With a sigh, she set it aside and opened her milk, in time to hear Megan. She looked up with a smile, as she hadn't seen her best friend in several days. It faded, though, as she heard what Megan wanted from her. Mal twisted her necklace nervously before speaking up. ''I'm sorry, Megan,'' she said slowly. ''I would do anything for you. You know that. It's just-well, Matthew's in jail. And I just-I-I can't. We might walk by his cell and I-'' She felt a panic attack coming on just thinking about it. Tears came to her eyes as she shook her head and spoke again. ''I'm so sorry. I can't go. I just can't.'' She understood why Megan was going. It was just, she couldn't bear to step into that place. After all, Megan wasn't the only one who had been subject to rape and abuse. Mallory had her own demon, and he was in that jail. ''Please don't hate me'' she whispered.
You know to keep your hopes up high and your head down low. Keep your hopes up high and your head down low. [/i] WORDCOUNT:: 605 TAGGED:: Megan CREDIT::: IMAGES - Persuasion @ Caution. Lyrics, All I Want - ADTR// Template MEGNGARNETT @ Caution.
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Grade 10
Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you cant see the pain someone feels.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jan 28, 2013 16:17:29 GMT -8
& I WAKE UP EVERY EVENING WITH A BIG SMILE ON MY FACE ( and it never seems out of place )
Megan wanted to understand. Really, she did. And she tried to. But face it, Mallory would never experience the kind of pain that she had. And at least Mallory has a mother and a boyfriend. People that truly did live her. But what about Megan? Her mother was dead. Her boyfriend tried to kill her. Her father's once boyfriend has gotten her pregnant. But Megan did not understand anything anymore. She couldn't do this. She has to get out of her. She looked up only to see Jack across the room. And she doubted that he even saw her. He probably didn't. It did not matter. She needed to get out of there. She shook her head, slightly. "I-I shouldn't have come." Tears were glistening in her eyes. "This was stupid. I should know this by now. All you can ever count on is yourself." "Goodbye, Mallory." she spoke softly. "Enjoy Degrassi. I never will." She swallowed and quickly stood up and turned around, a tear managing to escape her eye, but she quickly wiped it away.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 28, 2013 16:21:24 GMT -8
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He hated being in this stupid school. How was he supposed to hang out with Kaden and Dawn when he went to the very school they rivaled against? He didn't have a choice, though, because as soon as he was under his dad's roof, it was hi-ho, off to Degrassi you go. He didn't like it. Everything was changing so fast. And nothing anyone did would change his mind about hating Degrassi. He was a Lakehurst kid, through and through. The only thing that made it even slightly better was knowing that he wasn't the only one stuck in this hellhole. Gabriel was, too. It was his first day, and Nolan hadn't talked to anyone so far. He had come inside after having a smoke. He didn't even want to eat the food. So, he stayed close to the wall. When he noticed the nerd freaking out, Nolan smirked and watched out of amusement. Once he caught on to the conversation, though, it interested him. More than the school did, anyway. Especially when the girl said she would never enjoy Degrassi did Nolan decide that she was his type of chick. As she walked away, he pushed himself off the wall and followed. ''I hope the geek isn't stopping you from going, '' he spoke up, referring to Mallory. ''Cause you should go. And if you don't want to go alone, well, I'm up for a field trip. I'm Nolan.'' He had been told to make new friends. He wondered if this counted.
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
Home-Schooled
Grade 10
Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you cant see the pain someone feels.
Posts: 2,454
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jan 28, 2013 16:28:43 GMT -8
& I WAKE UP EVERY EVENING WITH A BIG SMILE ON MY FACE ( and it never seems out of place )
A geek? Megan has never thought of Mallory as a geek before. She was always just her best friends forever. Never a geek or a loser or other hurtful names that one could possibly think of. Maybe she was, what you called a geek. Megan just never noticed before. Maybe because she's always felt like such An outcast herself. "Hey, you shouldn't..." but Megan stopped and glanced back into the cafeteria. "She is suppose to be my best friend. If she were to ask me, I would go." She shook her head and looked back to Nolan. "But I guess I was wrong. I guess my problems are just not as important as her own." "Why would you go with me anyway? You don't even know me." She sighed and led him out of the front doors of Degrassi. "And you're okay with skipping school? I mean, I already dropped out a couple weeks ago, So it's no big real if I were to leave." She placed a gentle hand on her stomach and stopped and turned to looked at him. "Do you even know where I am going or the reason why?"
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Post by Deleted on Jan 28, 2013 17:08:50 GMT -8
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Nolan watched her. Every time he started to answer, another question was thrown his way. She was like Mr. Cooper, the way she didn't wait for an answer. He waited, figuring she'd run out of air sometime. When she finally stopped, he held up six fingers. ''Not my fault she's a geek,'' he put his lone finger down, ''that blows, your friend sounds like a pussy, no I don't mind, do I look like a nerd to you? I dunno. Something to do. I don't need reasons.'' One by one, his fingers went down, till only his middle finger was left. ''Let's go shove this in Jonny-boy's face. Do you always talk this fast?'' With a smirk, he headed for the parking lot. He figured they could borrow a car. Like maybe their dear old vice president. He looked like a big ball of fun. As he ran his hand along the car door, he looked at her. ''You know, I never caught your name. Or maybe you said it in between playing twenty questions. And I really don't care why you're being Miss Devil Without a Cause. But your name would be kinda cool.'' Hanging with a high school dropout was kind of like hanging with Kaden. He wasn't sure what his dad would say. But he really didn't care. He was here, wasn't he? He was making some kind of effort.
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
Home-Schooled
Grade 10
Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you cant see the pain someone feels.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jan 28, 2013 17:12:21 GMT -8
& I WAKE UP EVERY EVENING WITH A BIG SMILE ON MY FACE ( and it never seems out of place )
She knew who's car this was. Snyder's. She smirked. Well, what was the worse that he could do to her? Megan no longer attended Degrassi. She looked up at Nolan. “I'm sorry. I talk a lot when I'm nervous.” She chuckled, nervously. “Oh, I am so sorry. How rude of me. The name's Megan. Megan Del Rossi. Wouldn't be surprised if you heard the name.” She opened the door to the car and got inside, putting on her seatbelt. “Anyway, thanks for coming along. I really did not want to go alone. And my friend, or rather my so-called friend, back there...” she rolled her eyes. “She is nothing but a coward. I honestly have no idea why we are even friends.”
“Some pretty bad shit went down. In a nutshell, this guy that hurt me...” Megan placed her hand on her stomach. “Well, he sort of got me pregnant. I just...I honestly do not think that I can get past this until I confront this man. My father's ex-boyfriend.” She looked over to him. “So, if you changed your mind about going up to the jail with me, then you may wanna speak now. Before it is too late.”
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Post by Deleted on Jan 28, 2013 17:15:35 GMT -8
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Megan Del Rossi. A person would have to be deaf and dumb to not know who she was. While the dead were quickly forgotten, the surviving Sniper victims, he could name in order. Riley Isaacs, Audrey Yorke, Jessica Carpenter, Rumor Kerwin, Dawn Blake, Hannah and Megan Del Rossi, and Larisa DiMarco. So, what was Nolan supposed to do? He couldn't pretend to understand or be a fucking shoulder to cry. So as he got in, he decided to do what he figured would be best for him-lying. ''Sorry. Never heard of you.''
And then she launched into story-telling. Nolan waited, barely listening. When she was through, he reached down, getting the car started easily. Eying her, he spoke, his tone dark. ''My dad is the reason Toronto has a serial killer. Every murder, he thought up in this book he wrote. It was all taken from what he wrote, down to the last detail. If you are going to change your mind, now's the time.'' It was his turn to try and scare her And, he was curious to know if he would succeed.
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
Home-Schooled
Grade 10
Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you cant see the pain someone feels.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jan 28, 2013 21:38:48 GMT -8
& I WAKE UP EVERY EVENING WITH A BIG SMILE ON MY FACE ( and it never seems out of place )
Never heard of her. Megan could not help but smirk to herself. That was rather refreshing. Everybody seemed to know her name because of what the Sniper did to her. Because of what JACK did to her. But this guy did not. And Megan liked that. “Good.” she simply said when he said that he had never heard of her. And if he had never heard of her, she would not say a damn thing. Not a damn thing. God, Megan was so sick of the stares that she would get and the whisperes behind her back. Even from complete strangers. God, she just wanted everyone to just fucking quit it.
Megan could not believe what he was saying to her. Was he fucking crazy? He must be. And sure, maybe what he was saying did scare her, especially since she was a victim from the Sniper. But she was not about to show this boy a single ounce of fear. She just scoffed. “I am not going to change my mind. And stop trying to scare me. It is not going to work. So why don't you just get to driving already. Okay?” She said with a bit of an attitude and just rolled her eyes. “Okay. Drive..”
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Post by Deleted on Jan 29, 2013 11:05:21 GMT -8
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Nolan put the car in gear. ''You're the one who tried to freak me out first. If you're going to dish it out, then you should take it. I thought we were having story time. You know-the I'm more fucked up than you routine?'' He had played that game plenty of times. It was one that he and Dawnie used to play, trying to outdo each other when it came to dysfunctional families. Most of the time, Dawn won. But when she did lose, she was a good sport about it. Nolan went quiet as he pulled out of the parking spot and headed for the prison. He didn't need directions. With a stepdad in there, he knew exactly where to go.
Twenty minutes went by before they were there. It was between the city and the woods. He looked around, humming the Teddy Bear picnic song. His hand rested on the buzzer. ''You ready? Oh. Wait.'' He reached in his pocket and pulled out a knife, tossing it in the open window of the still-running car. He knew how to get a car started, but didn't know how to turn it off with a key. And he didn't tell her this, but it was highly likely that it would be out of gas by the time they were done here. With the knife no longer in his possession, he felt his pockets to make sure there was nothing that would get taken from him. He pulled a packet of E out, a box cutter, and his small bottle of rum and tossed it all in the driver's seat. ''We wouldn't have gotten past security with this shit. Not when they do the pat-downs.'' He felt his pockets once more before being satisfied that there was nothing else. ''There. Now. You ready?''
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Grade 10
Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you cant see the pain someone feels.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Mar 16, 2013 18:16:39 GMT -8
This was it. Too late to back out. Deep down, Megan knew that she should not be doing this. She knew that it was a bad decision on her part. But Megan truly believed that this was something that she had to do. She stayed rather quiet during the ride up there. She was lost inside of her own thoughts, thinking what could possibly happen. Once there, Megan Got out of the car and took out her knife, tossing it into the seat. And she followed Nolan to the front entrance.
Megan watched as Nolan cleared out his pockets. Was she ready? That was a good question. Could she ever really and truly be ready to confront the man who tormented her, abused her, raped her, impregnated her? She felt that she could not move on or have this child until she did see the much older man. Swallowing, Megan nodded. "As ready as I'm ever going to be."
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Post by Deleted on Jul 11, 2013 23:22:51 GMT -8
With a nod, he walked beside her as he led her inside. He stepped through the metal detector before turning to face her. "You know, it's not so bad. Having a baby. My dad was thirteen when I was born." Why was he telling her this? Nolan had one rule--don't ask, don't tell. He never trusted Kaden or Dawn with information about his life. And the only girl he ever really trusted was in a coma and had been for ten years. Mercy had been his only friend for so long, and then one day she was gone. And at the young age of six, Nolan had shut himself off. He was bullied as a child, then when he hit puberty, he started hanging with the one crowd that would give him protection from bullies. He didn't know the intimate details of their lives, and they didn't know him. So what the hell was he doing?
Honestly, Nolan did need someone he could confide in. He was told this, repeatedly. And he always had related better to girls than to guys. But this was a girl he knew nothing about, other than she had nearly been murdered by a guy who was copying his dad's book. Nolan was confused, about everything. Part of him wished he could talk to his dad, or even Miranda. But the problem was, he hadn't been around them long enough. He had barely seen his dad as a teenager, because he was too busy with Kaden and Dawn. And now that he was stuck living with them, they were like strangers to him.
Once they were through the metal detectors, they were given visitor badges and taken into the room. They were told to sit in front of a specific window, and when Jonathan was brought in, to pick up the phone to speak. Nolan looked around as he took a seat. He had only visited his stepdad once. If he was called out on skipping school, he would say that was who he was visiting. He sighed and looked at her. "Word to the wise? You can't put your fist through the glass. Believe me, I've learned that the hard way. So as much as you want to punch them, you can't get through."
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