hurry up and save me ::: hannah

Numb. She felt so numb. She hated feeling so numb. Everything she had lost. Losing her mother to murder. Losing her sister to suicide. Losing her dad to...whatever it was she had lost him to. And right now all she wanted to do was feel. To feel something. She didn't care what. She was desperate. Marissa had tried doin heroin with Matt. Hoping that it would help. But she hated it. And now she was drinking. Alot. And she had a problem with that. But she would never admit to that. She liked the feeling of forgetting everything. But it did not help with how numb she felt. She felt like she couldn't feel. And she needed to feel some sort of pain. And sort of pain.

She thought of one thing. The time when Matt had decided to whip her. And she hated it. She really did hate it. But now? That was something she was looking for. And she was not about to go find Matt and ask him to punish her. He had his own issues. But she had to find someone. Anyone. She did not care if it was a friend. Or if it was somebody who absolutely hated her. She wanted it bad. She wanted it hard. She wanted to be punished!

Maybe going to the Ravine, she would find someone who could help her out. She didn't know who. But there were tons of people there. There had to be at least one person who could give her what she needed. What she deserved.

Marissa never even bothered going to school that day. Oh, she left when she normally would as to not get into trouble by her dad. But she was not planning on going to school. She did not want to go. Instead, she just walked around for awhile. Before winding up at the Ravine.

And that was where Marissa had been all morning. And into the afternoon. Doing nothing but chilling by herself. Doing nothing but drinking beer. She enjoyed drinking. But she was still on the look out for somebody....She grabbed yet another beer as she sat down on a log, looking around at her surroundings.