Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you cant see the pain someone feels.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jun 29, 2012 3:48:16 GMT -8
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[/color] MEGAN'S OUTFITLife just seemed so complicated. Megan felt more alone in this world than she ever have in her entire life. Her parents weren't together anymore. Her best friend in the world hated her. Or at least, that was what she made herself believe, whether it was true or not. Megan just kept to herself. Ever since getting out of the hospital. Even when she was in the hospital, Megan hardly talked to anyone. Well, there was Matt. He knew who did this. And now, so did Hannah. And even Mallory knew. That was all. Or so she she believed. Megan was too scared to even go to school, though she tried. And now, she just found out that she was pregnant. Thanks to JJ helping her out and all. And the worst part? She knew who's baby this was. It belonged to Jonathon. How would she save face? How would she tell her parents that she was pregnant? And only at sixteen, too. Yesterday, she had gone done to the clinic. She had to make sure that the pregnancy test was correct. Maybe if she was lucky, it was false. Maybe it only came out positive because she had cancer or something. She almost wished that it had been cancer. She wished that it was something that would kill her. But, of course, Megan Del Rossi could never get that lucky. The test was right. She was pregnant. And then she once again thought about her dad. If he found out, Ben would surely kick her out of the house. After all, that's what had happened with Hannah. She had no idea what to do. Megan didn't go to school that day. Not today. Not after getting the bad news. She was pregnant. Exactly a month and a half along. It was Jonathon's kid. The second her father finds out, she would surely be out on the streets. Instead, Megan had left her house and went to the park. Where she knew that nobody would be. Grabbing her crutches, she walked slowly to the park. And went straight to the lake. She sat down right next to the water, setting the crutches beside her, putting her good leg (the one without the cast) into the freezing water. She started scooter closer to the water. What if she jumped in? What if she stayed under water? What if she just drowned? Would anyone notice or even care? Would her life be better then? Would everyone's lives be better then? [/blockquote][/size] [/center] tags:[/color] Mallry Isaacs lyrics:[/color] she had the world - panic! at the disco. words:[/color] 418 notes:[/color] answer credit:[/color] heatherrenee at caution 2.0[/size]
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Post by Deleted on Jun 29, 2012 4:10:15 GMT -8
She sat by the water, staring at the article. She read the words over and over. By now, everyone knew that Coach Brooks was gone. Nobody knew why. Well, the stupid clique knew why. It made Mallory mad. She wished Charlie was here; she would have the guts to fight Willow. Because anytime something happened in Abigail or Rachel's name, it was really Willow's doing. Mallory knew this. Did they know that he didn't just quit his job? That Uncle Jimmy actually left--left Rachel, left Jamie? Though, something told her that it was far from over. Jamie was still in Degrassi. That article could still come out. Mallory hoped it wouldn't, but it could happen.
She sniffed, taking off her glasses to wipe them off because they were getting fogged up. She wasn't in school, like she was supposed to be. She just wanted the day to herself. To relax by the lake. She picked up a stone, skipping it over the water. And as she did, she heard a soft splash. She looked over, and saw Megan. Her best friend. No matter what happened between them, she would always be Mallory's best friend. Mal just couldn't have her get hurt by Matthew. But now he was gone. She wasn't sure why, but it didn't matter.He was gone for good.
Mallory bit her lip, picking up the cooler that she had brought with her. Making her way over, she smiled. "Great minds think alike, huh?" she said, announcing her presence. She held up the cooler. "Want a soda?" As if nothing had ever happened. Well, nothing really did. And she hoped Megan wouldn't be furious with her.
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Grade 10
Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you cant see the pain someone feels.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jun 29, 2012 5:43:24 GMT -8
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[/color] MEGAN'S OUTFITNo matter how hard anyone tried, Megan and Mallory's friendship would never be the same. And why? Because Megan was no the same. But Mallory's would not know this. The two girls, they have been through so much together. So much pain, so much suffering. But they had their good times, as well.But let's face it. Megan was no longer the same girl that she was around 5 weeks ago when the two girls stopped talking. She was distant, scared. She was suicidal. She was pregnant. Raped. Used as a play toy. She was worthless. Just a piece of garbage. Trash. She was something to be used and abused. She could not take it anymore. She just couldn't. She needed to find a way out of this life. Had to. Megan had begun to hate herself. Hate who she had become. She hated everything about her. The way she looked, talked, acted. She could not stand herself anymore. And then she heard that very familiar voice. Mallory's voice. Biting her bottom lip, Megan just shook her head when offered a soda. She could not keep anything down these days, not even liquids. And then, coming up like word vomit, she said something that she was not able to tell anyone. Something that, at this time, only JJ and Larisa knew about. “Mallory, I'm pregnant.” [/blockquote][/size] [/center] tags:[/color] Mallry Isaacs lyrics:[/color] she had the world - panic! at the disco. words:[/color] 225 notes:[/color] answer credit:[/color] heatherrenee at caution 2.0[/size]
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Post by Deleted on Jun 29, 2012 6:59:44 GMT -8
Mallory blinked. Well, that was...unexpected. Walking closer, she sat beside her. "My mom showed up. She's alive, Megan." she bit her lip. "I guess we both have decisions to make, huh? Part of growing up, I guess." When did that happen? Mallory didn't remember growing past childhood. Suddenly, she was meeting a mother she never knew. And honestly, she wanted to piss her off. She wanted to go to her mom, and test her buttons until she either ran again or gave her a good spanking. At least then, Mallory would feel cared about.
She looked at her best friend and swallowed. "Is it Jack's?" She didn't know if Megan had slept with him or not. She knew they were pretty serious for a while. But had they slept together? Mallory hadn't slept with Aidan, herself. It would be six months right after prom, and she hadn't given it up to him. Which, she intended to ask Megan about as well.
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Grade 10
Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you cant see the pain someone feels.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jun 29, 2012 7:14:51 GMT -8
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[/color] MEGAN'S OUTFITWas it Jack's? No. It could have been Matt's or JJ's or even Dustin's. But it wasn't any of them. It was far more worse. It was Jonathon's. She felt tears form in her eyes. “N-no...” She whispered, looking down. There's something you should know. No one else does. But you can't tell. You have to promise.” But she didn't even wait for an answer. Honestly, Megan almost wished that Mallory would tell somebody. But what if he found out? Then what? He would probably kill her. And she almost wished that he would already. She just wanted to die. She wanted this pain to be over. She wanted it all to go away. “My dad's boyfriend..he's-he's not very nice. And—he does things. Horrible things. Worse then my daddy. And—it's—it's his kid. And I'm so scared. I'm scared, Mallory.” Tears fell down her face, as she looked up at her. “I don't know what to do. I can't tell because he'll kill me. He'll kill my family. I don't know what to do. And no one will listen to me. I feel so alone. I am alone. And I had noone to talk to. What am I suppose to do? What?” [/blockquote][/size] [/center] tags:[/color] Mallry Isaacs lyrics:[/color] she had the world - panic! at the disco. words:[/color] 204 notes:[/color] answer credit:[/color] heatherrenee at caution 2.0[/size]
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Post by Deleted on Jun 29, 2012 7:54:35 GMT -8
"Of course" she said instantly, looking at her eagerly, waiting for her secret. When she told her, she paled. "Like Matthew. Right?" This was bad. Mallory had been trying to protect her. She shook her head. "I never wanted to leave you alone. He came back, Megan. I mean, he's gone now, but he was here again. And I just thought that if I ignored you, you would stay safe. I am so sorry. Forgive me?" She had asked what to do. Mallory swallowed "Honest? I think you need to leave who the father is out of it. Think about yourself. Are you ready for this? Cause if you're not, and I normally wouldn't suggest this, but...you don't have to be pregnant."
An abortion would normally be something that Mal was against. But, she thought that there were times when exceptions could be made. With a sigh, she looked at her. "What do you think I should do? About my mother, I mean. She just appeared out of nowhere. Does she deserve a chance? What if she runs at the first sign of trouble? She ran when I was born. And I'm a teenager, there's gonna be trouble. I can't help it, we're like, born for it or something."
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
Home-Schooled
Grade 10
Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you cant see the pain someone feels.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 3, 2012 3:59:39 GMT -8
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[/color] MEGAN'S OUTFITMegan hugged her knees tighter. This just could not be happening. Not to her. She did not deserve this constant pain that she kept feeling. It just was not fair. And this was why she had no faith. That she did not believe in God. How could she? If there was a God, then why would he allow Megan to go through heartache after heartache. Her heart was aching. It was in so much pain. And Megan just did not know what to do anymore. She was stuck using these stupid crutches. She was living in fear. She just did not want to be alive anymore. She just could no longer take it. Everything in her life just felt so screwed up. She felt so out of control. What could she do? An abortion. She was surprised that Mallory was even suggesting that. She knew how her best friend felt about abortions. But could she honestly do that? This poor child had no say in the matter. Sure, Megan had been abused, had been raped, but this child was not at fault with what at happened to its mother. “I-I don't know if I can.” She bit her bottom lip. “My biggest fear is telling my dad. He kicked out Hannah when he found out that she was pregnant. What if he does the same thing to me? I'm just scared to tell him. I don't want to get kicked out.” Swallowing, Megan looked out at the lake. “You should consider yourself lucky, Mal. At least your mother is alive, after all. You should give her a chance. People can change. And maybe there is a perfectly good reason that she couldn't keep you. But you'll never know unless you find out for yourself. I'd give everything I had to know my mother was really alive. Take a chance. Talk to her. You'll feel better just for doing that.” [/blockquote][/size] [/center] tags:[/color] Mallry Isaacs lyrics:[/color] she had the world - panic! at the disco. words:[/color] 322 notes:[/color] answer credit:[/color] heatherrenee at caution 2.0[/size]
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Post by Deleted on Jul 3, 2012 18:12:34 GMT -8
"Megan, you're thinking about this all wrong. You're letting yourself believe that you don't have any choices. You have choices. I mean...I know, normally I would say that you can't do that and abortion is wrong. It's just...well, I think that when a girl finds herself in that situation, right and wrong can seem get pretty confusing. Plus, I mean, with everything else that's happened....It's what I would do. And I would go with you, you know. So you wouldn't be alone." A lot had changed about Mallory. Of course, some things would stay the same. She was still crazy over Megan's dork of a brother. He was her sun and moon, her whole universe. Without Aidan, she probably wouldn't be here. He gave her a reason to want to live, and she didn't think he even knew it. She had been pretty depressed before he came into her life at that dance, dressed as prince charming and asking her to date. She hadn't been able to believe that someone like him would ever like someone like her. But he did. And he made her life a hundred times better. But. a lot was different, too. Her views had changed. She now knew that there were some things that could never be okay, and some that could be considered under the right circumstances. And abortion was one of them. "What if you went to your other dad?"
As she listened to her, she bit her lip. "I have so many questions for her," she admitted. "But--I'm scared. What if I find out that I was just a mistake? That she never wanted me? I just don't think I could take that kind of rejection" she looked down. But, it did make sense to take a chance. "I'm so confused. About her and Aidan." Aidan. God, was this even a topic she should be bringing up to his sister? It was probably the worst subject in the universe. But, they were best friends. They were supposed to talk about everything. And this was nice. Just talking without any worries.
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Grade 10
Not all scars show. Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you cant see the pain someone feels.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Mar 30, 2013 21:57:01 GMT -8
Abortion. Megan thought that was something that she could never do. But a lot had changed since she was younger. Hell, even since last September. Things always seemed to be changing. And never for the better. Megan began to wonder if she would ever catch a break. She shook her head and looked out into the lake. “I can’t tell them. That would mean admitting the truth. I don’t want to have to explain how I got pregnant. I don’t know. Maybe I’m just a coward, but I can’t.” Swallowing, Megan looked over to Mallory. “Tomorrow, after school. I’m gonna go. I’m gonna do it.” She placed a hand on her stomach. “I can’t stand the idea of this being Jonathon's child. I have to do what is best for everyone. And I hope you will be able to come with me. Only you know the real truth. Well, you and JJ. You wanna know something? We’re-we’re in a relationship now. I really care about him. But I’m also scared. I can’t take getting hurt again.”
Sighing, Megan looked away. “Just do it, Mallory. Without thinking. Just march up to her door and knock before you can chicken out. I know you must be scared and worried about doing that, but you’ll be happy you did. You’re lucky, to have a mom alive. Give her a chance, okay? Let her in.” Megan thought Mallory was so lucky to actually have a mother. She didn’t. not since she was nine. And she would give anything to change that. But she couldn’t.
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