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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jun 15, 2012 23:55:47 GMT -8
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Why was life so hard? So complicated? Why did Marissa Manning have to live this way? She was only fifteen years old. Her life should not be so complex at just fifteen. She should be happy. She should be a kid. But she just was not. She was a self-mutilator. She was an anorexic. Her love life seemed to be a complete mess. Marissa still cut herself. She still burns herself. There are days that Marissa makes herself throw up after meals still. Or days where she just does not eat at all. Especially recently. Not like anyone notices anyhow. Or would ever notice the pain that she was in. That was how she felt. And now, her mother was dead to murder. Her baby sister dead to suicide. Her life just seemed to get more and more screwed up. She could not take it anymore. Marissa was the one to find her sister's body. She found her on the bathroom floor. In a pool of her own blood. She felt like she could not breathe. Like her entire world was crashing around her. And so she went to her boyfriend's. Where the two did heroin together.
That was something that Marissa would never try again. It made her feel so sick. Worse than she had ever felt her entire life. She never wanted to feel that sick in that way again. For as long as she lived. But she felt like she needed something. She just did not want to feel anymore. She felt like the entire weight of the world was on her shoulders. And she just wanted it all to go away. She wanted it all to stop. Needed it to stop.
Marissa left the hotel room. She just could not be there anymore. All she could think about was finding her sister's body, in a pool of her own blood, whenever she was there. And she had to get out. She had to get some fresh air. It was seven o'clock at night and Marissa went out for a walk. She walked around aimlessly. Until she realized her surroundings. Actually, she did not realize anything. Except that she was in an unfamiliar neighborhood, standing outside of some bar that she had never even heard of. Taking in a deep breath, Marissa leaned against the brick wall and slid down to the ground, hugging her knees tightly. Trying so hard not to start crying. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ TAG(S); JJ Yorke WORDS; 407 LYRICS; Whisper by Evanescence NOTES; CREDITS; lisathecat of CAUTION 2.0!
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Post by JJ Yorke on Jun 28, 2012 13:01:25 GMT -8
Babies crying. People arguing. Telephones ringing. Without his mother, it was pure insanity. I'll be home soon, she said. Every time he talked to her, or visited her in the hospital, she said it. Don't worry about me. I'm a trooper. That old Sniper would have to do a lot worse to me than this. But he did worry. Someone had hurt her. And what was worse, it was revenge. There had been a sign nailed to her stomach; You Reap What You Sow. Who had sowed it? Him? JJ knew that he had done a lot of awful things in his life. He was a bully, mostly, but he also got into rivalries. Had he done something to the Sniper? He didn't even know who the Sniper was. But there was a good chance he could be some nerdy punk whose lack of social life drove him to murder. Oh, god. What if he had shoved the kid into a locker too many times? Or knocked his books out of his hands? What if all of this was his fault?
He left the house, taking off on his motorcycle. He didn't know where he was going. But he couldn't take this. He had been dealing with Derek and Charlie leaving. Not really well, but he had been dealing. But this--this was his mommy. His mama. This, he couldn't deal with. So he got on his cycle, and went for a drive. Tears were forming in his eyes as he thought about his mother in that hospital bed. Before he knew it, he was across town, and he saw someone. Someone he recognized. Someone he really shouldn't be messing with. Marissa Manning.
She was the first girl he ever loved. First girl who could ever make him want to be more than just that guy you saw in the ravine. First girl to ever break his heart. But, she wasn't the last. And he knew she was going through some pretty bad shit, too. Her mom had been murdered by the same asshole who had his mom in a hospital bed. They had that in common. Though, she probably didn't know about his mom. Still, he decided that they shared a kind of bond. And why not pull over?
He pulled to the side, before picking up the extra helmet. "Want a ride?" he called to her, holding it out to her. Why not? He wasn't with Charlie anymore. He couldn't keep track of whether or not she was with Matt, but he didn't care, either. He didn't want to be alone. And at least with Marissa, he could talk to her. Maybe more. He didn't know.
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jun 28, 2012 15:40:05 GMT -8
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Marissa knew, knew deep down that her sister's suicide was partly her own fault. She would not forgive her for sleeping with her fiance. She just couldn't. Why did everyone keep breaking her heart? How could they all hurt her this way? It did not make any sense. And it was not fair. Not in the least. Everything was a mess. Her family seemed to be falling apart. Her best friend in this entire world was in a freaking coma. Charlie was gone. That was one of her best friends. And she left, just like that. Without so much as a goodbye. How could she just leave like that? And she hadn't even really talked to Jenna in a while. It had been hectic in her life lately. She never really had time to just go out and hang with friends. It seemed like all people ever did was leave, leave her, alone and filled with sadness. And each day, Marissa could feel her heart break just a little bit more.
And suddenly, it was all getting to be too much. Suddenly, everything felt as though it were crashing down around her. Suddenly, it just felt as though she could not seem to breathe. First, Scott gets into an accident, ends up in a coma. Her mom dies at some school dance. Then a few days after losing her mother, her sister kills herself. And then the other night, with Matt, just a couple days before her mom's funeral, trying heroin? All she wanted was for Matt to be there for her. But all he did was get her to try heroin with him. What kind of boyfriend did that? Marissa was already so confused. And now...
As tears started making their way down her cheeks, she had heard a familiar voice. A voice that she knew all too well. She remembered how she would try and tell herself that she had never loved JJ. That he was just a boy to date. But that was far from true. She had just been trying to get over him. She figured that he would want nothing to do with her. But now? She was not so sure anymore. But he had been her first love. And she had never meant to hurt JJ. She really hadn't. She quickly wiped away her tears and got to her feet, looking up at JJ. Biting her bottom lip, she nodded and walked over to him, taking the extra helment. “O-okay. Yeah. That would be great.” she spoke, trying to keep her voice steady. Marissa put on the helment and climbed onto his motorcycle behind him, hesitently putting her hands on his waist. If they had been together, or even just friends, she probably would have wrapped her arms around him. But now...she just was not sure if she should do that exactly. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ TAG(S); JJ Yorke WORDS; 479 LYRICS; Whisper by Evanescence NOTES; CREDITS; lisathecat of CAUTION 2.0!
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Post by JJ Yorke on Jun 28, 2012 20:02:02 GMT -8
JJ swallowed, watching her put the helmet on. Marissa was the one that got away. Honestly, the first thing that he had thought when he discovered that Charlie was gone was that Marissa wouldn't have done it. Marissa would have at least come to say goodbye. Maybe that was the wrong thing to think of, but he couldn't help it. The brunette had left a lasting impression on him. He thought that this would never happen again. That the two would always hate each other. But now, she was taking a ride from him. And he knew just where to take her.
"Hold on tight." His voice was shaky, it had a catch in it. He hoped she didn't take notice. He was a man, he wasn't supposed to be crying over mommy. But it wasn't that cut and dry. His mother and him always had a close relationship. She always said that he was her special boy. That was why, when she started taking in kids off the street, he got jealous. He didn't want anyone else taking her affections. But even now, with his mother in the ICU, tubes in her stomach and machines connected to her, he didn't care anymore. She could take in a thousand kids. He just wanted his mother back home.
Without warning, he left Toronto. Hell, he left Canada altogether. It took him about a half hour, but he ended up in the middle of the woods. There was a cabin out by the river. The only person he had ever brought here was Charlie. Well, Marissa made number two. When he finally brought the cycle to a stop, he took off his helmet. "I thought you could use a break from everything." he explained to her. "I mean, I could take you back if you want me too. We'd have to get gas, though, I'm almost on empty" he swallowed and looked down, kicking at a rock. "I don't blame you if you don't trust me. I wouldn't be here with me, either." He put his helmet on the handlebar and pulled out the key to the cabin, in case she didn't mind staying. "There's food. And a full liqiuor cabinet"
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jun 29, 2012 4:41:59 GMT -8
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Marissa remembered the last time that she had rode on the back of his motorcycle. It ad been not long after the two broke up. She dyed her hair black, tried to change her looks. She had lied, pretending to be somebody else. All Marissa wanted was for JJ to listen to her. This seemed to be the only way that she could get him to listen. And then everything changed. Their relationship changed forever. She should not be doing this. She should not trust him like this. But the truth was, she did trust him. Why? It was hard to explain. After the incident in the bathroom at school...she had no reason to trust him.Maybe she desperately seeked to be loved. Maybe she just no longer felt loved by anyone. Her family doesn't care about her. Except for Scott, and he was in a coma. The truth was, Marissa just could not take life anymore. She needed an escape.
Once they finally arrived to wherever JJ was taking them, she carefully got off of the motorcycle and took off the helment, setting it down on the seat. Tears still glistened in her eyes and she blinked, trying to get rid of them, before looking back to JJ. “N-no. No. I don't want to go back. I-I never wanna go back.” she whispered, softly, her voice starting to crack just slightly. She swallowed. “I'd like to stay here. With you.” She pushed her hair away from her eyes, and forced a smile. It was just hard for her to smile lately. She did not deserve to be happy. Not even for a second. “What kind of alcohol you got?” she decided to ask, following him. Maybe it could make her feel numb all over. Maybe...
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Post by JJ Yorke on Jun 29, 2012 6:46:52 GMT -8
That honestly wasn't the answer he was expecting. Why should she want to be there with him? But, apparently, she did. A smile crept on his face. "Good. Cause I wouldn't want to be here with anyone else." And it was true. With that, he went to the door and unlocked it. He stood in the doorway, staring ahead, before he looked down at her. "Mom's in the hospital. Sniper got her. She says she'll be fine, but..." but he didn't know that she would be. He knew his mom was tough, always had been. He'd seen her scare off the worst of the worst. But he also knew that she was put through a lot. He hoped she'd survive, but he didn't know. Marissa's mom didn't.
He sighed. "What if I'll always be a bully? What if I'm the guy that pushes people into doing things like this? I don't wanna be that guy. I mean...it could be your fault that your mom was killed." He was scared, naturally. JJ didn't know if he was capable of changing. He had been like that for so long. Would he ever be different? He had been raped and beaten, and he was still hurting others. What could be done about it? He had no clue. But he knew something needed to change. This couldn't happen. If this was his fault, JJ was going to hate himself for a long time.
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jun 29, 2012 7:06:02 GMT -8
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Looked like the two had something in common after all. Shame it was this, though. But as least his mom was alive. Hers wasn't. And what he said got to her. It could be her fault. That was something she kept saying to herself since she found out her mother was dead. That it was her fault. Swallowing, Marissa looked down at the ground. “I do believe that. That my mom dying was all my fault. I-I never even got to say goodbye. I wouldn't go to her funeral. I was still so mad at her for breaking up our perfect family. So mad that I couldn't bring myself to go. And I know—I know that it's my fault that she's dead.” Nobody even knew that she was thinking like that. Tears glistened in her eyes as she looked up at him. “Beth killed herself. Just days before her funeral. That's my fault to. I hated her for sleeping with Matt. That I was not there for her when she needed me the most. And I hate myself. Scott's in a coma. Dad doesn't care. I've lost my family. I've lost everything, everything that I ever cared about. I even lost you. I'm cursed. I'll always be cursed.”
Biting her lip, Marissa looked into his eyes. “But you have a family. And they love you. And you're mother's a fighter. She's gonna pull through. You just have to believe. Believe that everything will be okay, JJ. Just believe it. And you can change. If that's what you want. Then you can. It's not too late. One day, once you're out of high school, you're gonna be somebody great. You're gonna do something with your life. And people are going to love you. And then what you did back in high school, it just won't matter anymore.” She gave a tiny smile. A smile that appeared almost...sad. “I know that you'll be just fine. It's not too late for you. But it is for me. I-I don't think I'll make it out of high school.” She swallowed and looked down. “Do-do you think it's horrible? To wish that I had died that night? Back at the dance?”
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Post by JJ Yorke on Jun 29, 2012 7:39:05 GMT -8
JJ looked down at her, a solitary tear going down his cheek. He listened to her and shook his head. "You never lost me, Marissa. Why do you think I couldn't stay faithful to Chuck? Cause I knew who I belonged with. You're the only one I was ever able to stay faithful to, Marissa. I could never cheat on you, because for some reason, no matter how hard I fought it, I was always going to belong to you. You made me a better person. If I ever had a chance at being saved, it was with you. But now, I guess it's too late for that." he looked down. "After all, why would you be with me when you can be with him?" Matt was always better for her, he knew. Of course, JJ didn't know about all the problems they had.
Going inside, he sat on the couch, setting the keys on the coffee table. "You know I think about the day we broke up every day? And I think about how I could have done it differently. We didn't have to break up. And when I did what I did to you--I deserved to have the shit beaten out of me for that. I can't believe I ever did that. I would not blame you if you had gotten revenge on me, you know. Taught me a lesson. I sure as hell could have used it" he slumped back, resting his hand on a nearby cushion. "And if you had died, then I wouldn't have a reason to live. I'd be following you." he sighed and looked up at her. "Wanna sit down?"
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jun 30, 2012 2:20:13 GMT -8
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This was all getting to feel so confusing. Why was she suddenly feeling so torn between the two. No. She loved Matt. He was her soul mate. Wasn't he? She believed that he was. He had to be. They were engaged. They wanted to get married. They wanted to spend the rest of their lives together. If they were not meant to be together, then would they have been engaged in the first place? Marissa did not think so. This was not right. This was all so very wrong. Marissa felt completely confused, conflicted. With a small smile, Marissa walked over and sat beside him on the couch. She looked subconsciously donw at the engagement ring on her finger. “I love Matt. I thought he was everything to me. But-” She shook her head. “We were meant to be I thought. But if two people are soul mates, they-they shouldn't keep hurting one another, right?” Shew looked up at JJ with a look of desperation in her eyes. She didn't understand. It did not make any sense to her at all.
“I never meant to hurt you. I was just going through so much heartache. Maybe-maybe it just wasn't the right time for me to have a boyfriend. Maybe I just couldn't handle it. I don't know.” She bit done on her bottom lip and looked down at her hands. “Why would you ever like me. I'm not great. I'm not pretty. I have issues. I'm anorexic; I cut. I'm not stable. Why could anyone ever love me? I don't understand.”
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Post by JJ Yorke on Jun 30, 2012 3:14:55 GMT -8
He looked at her. Matt had hurt her? Oh, he was going to kick his ass. His jaw tightened as he listened to her. Matt didn't treat her right. Not if she thought all that about herself. He didn't understand it. How could you have someone like Marissa and not treat her well? She was good and kind to everyone. She had an air of innocence about her. She never treated anyone like they were lower than dirt. So how could he treat her like that? "You're gorgeous," he corrected her, and she was. Even in her christian duds with her little Bible. She would always be gorgeous, too.
JJ closed his eyes. She hadn't sat down. She probably didn't feel comfortable. Clearing his throat, he finally began to speak, keeping his eyes closed as he drew up the words from so long ago. "those eyes so gentle, those lips so kind., that hair so smooth, that smile so shy. She's so outgoing, but shies from me. I can't help but be intrigued. I want her to hold me tight, to say she loves me all through the night. I'll do anything to grab her attention because I get this tingly sensation every time I think of her love within, and my heart jumps, this may be a sin, but I cannot help how I feel, and I want my fantasies to become real. " He paused, opening his eyes again. "I was never really a good writer. But I don't think you even knew I wrote that. It was a week before we started dating. And it still holds true, Marissa."
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jul 1, 2012 3:52:23 GMT -8
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No, at times Marissa did not think that Matt treated her right. But she just never believed it. She couldn't believe it. She was too blindsided by love. She did love him. But was it true love, soul mate kind of love? Marissa was not so sure anymore. And maybe she was to young to be dealing with this stuff now. Maybe... She was only fifteen, after all. She looked up to JJ and smiled, sweetly. The first reall smile that she'd had in a while now. JJ, he had always made her feel special when they were dating. Gosh, that seemed almost a lifetime ago now, rather than several months ago. She did miss him in a way. He was there for her when she was abused and raped after one stupid mistake in the ravine. She remembered that night that he had found out all too well. Did he know that she had been pregnant because of it too? She couldn't really remember. And then, after he broke up with you, how she tried to kill herself. If he had not been there, at the hospital, then Jake would have tried to control her. She would have been hurt further. He saved her from that. Did he know? In a way, she thought of him as her hero. Even after all these months. Take what happened at that New Year's Eve party for instance. When Matt had made her cry.
She slowly walked over and sat down beside him. “That's beautiful.” she replied, softly, about the poem he recited. Did he know about any of the problems that she had had recently? She started feeling way to comfortable. And that made her nervous in a way. “Uhm—could I actually have a drink?” She looked up to him. She needed something to calm down her nerves. She didn't like feeling the way that she did.
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Post by JJ Yorke on Jul 3, 2012 17:32:47 GMT -8
JJ looked at her, so close to him. So sad, yet so beautiful. He heard her compliment his poem and smiled. "you're beautiful." Biting his lip, he turned so he was laying on the couch, extending his arms. "Come here." his voice wasn't harsh, or demanding. It was more of a request. He wanted to hold her, like he used to. She made him feel sane again. Honestly, Marissa was the only one who ever had. Charlie never did. After what Megan had done to him, Charlie had sided with her. She was even judgmental when it came to the pictures. And, she never gave him a chance to tell her that he had been raped. She assumed he had cheated. That hurt more than he cared to admit. Sure, he had hurt Charlie quite a bit in their relationship, but she always had a way to hurt him right back. Even after they were married. And really, he hadn't wanted to. She had pushed him into it. She wanted to be whisked away by the romance of it all. Was it bad, for him to not be ready for it? That he just wanted to date, to explore the world before settling down? He didn't know. She acted like it was.
She asked for a drink. "Alcohol messes with you. I just want to spend time with you. Sober you." He bit his lip. "Marissa? If I told you something, would you promise not to laugh?" Marissa would believe him, wouldn't she? Had it been her, he was pretty sure it would have been completely different. Charlie was always playing games, her and her sister. She never really trusted him, she just pretended to. So, how could she have really loved him? That was his theory, anyways. And, he was about to test it.
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jul 6, 2012 2:19:11 GMT -8
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It seemed like lately, Marissa had been having a hard time trusting anyone. Even herself. And how was she able to even trust JJ? How could she? Her mind flashed back to that day in the girls washroom. He had purposely hurt her. Physically hurt her. How could Marissa truly trust him after that day. He had almost killed her fiancee. There was just some part of her that really knew that she should not be trusting the older boy. No, she could not do this. She did not deserve any guy. Marissa was not the same girl back when her and JJ were dating. Didn't he know this? Didn't JJ know that Marissa had drastically changed? And not for the better, either. Marissa was changing quickly. She was going from good to bad. From bad to worse. All to quick. Just in a matter of months. It waas no wonder why Matt kept wanting to hurt her. She was not the same girl that she had been back in the seventh grade.
Swallowing, Marissa stood up. “Uhm—I--I actually think I'd like to stand. Thank you, though.” She then turned and looked at JJ. “You can tell me anything. I promise not to laugh.” And Marissa really meant that. But when he wanted her to lay with him, Marissa just couldn't. Her mind had immediately flashed back to the day in the washroom. She just couldn't set herself up to get hurt again. She couldn't. She wouldn't.
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Post by JJ Yorke on Jul 6, 2012 7:46:34 GMT -8
JJ watched her and sighed. How could he blame her? After everything he had done to her that year? Purposely trying to make Matt jealous? Trying to break them up? And what about what he did to her in the washroom? JJ knew that wasn't something anyone should just forgive. She shouldn't even be in here with him. So why was she? Was there hope? Could he be forgiven? He decided that what he was going to tell her, that it could wait. He had something else she needed to hear. Something he had been trying to muster up the courage to tell her since that day when he stabbed Matt.
"Ok. Here goes. I've been doing a lot of thinking. As it turns out, I'm capable of it," he joked with a nervous chuckle. "I don't deserve to be forgiven for anything I've done to you. I'm not an idiot, nobody should ever get away with hurting you like that. But....you know, my mom kicked my ass for the way I hurt you. And, so did Megan. Actually, never mind. hers was for stabbing Matt." he sighed. "I want to make things right with you. And, if anyone ever did that to Jenna, I'd do the same thing to them, or tie them up so she could. So..." he exhaled. "If you need to, you can. Do everything I did to you. The belt, the soap...everything." he looked up at her. "I'll even take the belt off that I'm wearing, and you can use it on me." he swallowed. "I want you to be able to be near me again, Marissa. I want to earn your trust back. And I think I should be punished for what I did before that can happen."
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Post by Marissa Michelle Manning on Jul 10, 2012 9:51:11 GMT -8
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Taking a step back, Marissa looked down at the ground as she listened to JJ talk to her. How would doing that to him help matters any? She didn't think it would really help. She just was not so sure. He hurt her. Sure, maybe she had hurt him, even broke his heart. But how could he have beat her like that. Apparently beating her was the only way to knock some sense into her. Or thats what he basically had said to her. And maybe he was right. Maybe she should have never gone to his mother before that day. Maybe JJ was right to do what he had done. Sometimes Marissa thought that he had every right to do all of those things.
No, she could not do this. She could not handle this. Her life was just so messed up. If JJ knew how much she was struggling right now, would he even be here with her? She had no idea. How would he feel if he knew that she was cutting. Did he ever know that she was cutting back when they were dating even? How would he feel, react, if he knew that she still was having serious eating issues? She wasw scared. She was terrified. “I-I don't know. I don't think that I can d-do that.” she whispered.
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