Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jun 5, 2010 19:50:39 GMT -8
Megan was walking around, not having a specific place in mind even. She just needed a little bit of fresh air. Maybe it would help her to feel better. Lately, she'd just been staying locked up in her room. But every little sound seemed to be making her jumpy. She decided that maybe she should head back home. As she turned a corner, though, Megan ran right into someone, letting out a yelp. It was some homeless guy, but the way he looked scared Megan. He reached out his hand and Megan screamed. "No! Don't touch me! Don't hurt me!" She turned around and began running. She thought that he wanted to kill her, when all he really wanted was change. But Megan was suffering from PTSD. Running, she ended up going into the church and hidding in one of those confession booths, terrified.
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Hannah was freezing. This Spring, it had snowed more than it rained. Why it had to wait until after Hannah was back out in the cold to start snowing, she didn't know. She had spent the entire day at the Dot until the owner told her that they had to close. And the second she stepped out, snowflakes started to fall. Shivering, she walked the streets of Toronto searching for shelter and warmth. She didn't even have a coat on, and there was no way that she could go back to Mrs. Stone's Finally, she spotted a church. Hannah didn't really want to go in but she was pretty desperate. She walked to the front, warming her hands by the candles. When she spotted the confession booth, she paused. Something about her situation made her want to pray, and she figured she should probably confess before she tried to pray. She opened the door and stepped inside. She was still freezing when she spoke, her voice shook. "Forgive me father for I have sinned. It's been like 6 years since I've been inside a church and I don't think I've ever confessed. But all the shit I've done in the past it's like to much to remember to tell so I'm just gonna give you an update of what's happened this week. I don't know if it's suppose to work like that, but oh well. I'm pregnant. I've been pregnant for the past 5 1/2 months. I just didn't tell anybody. I haven't been very nice to my family. I kind of beat the crap out of my baby sister. I don't even know why I did it anymore. I love her. I really do. And sometimes, she can be my role model. I know I'm probably a total psycho for hurting her like that. And you know, she's not the only one. My dad kicked me out when he found out I was pregnant and the principal of my school took me in. And she's this really amazing woman and what did I do? I stole all the money that she and everyone else in the place had and took off. And I know what you're thinking. That's alot to be asking forgiveness for and believe me. You don't even want to know the rest of my life story. I've probably done to much for even God to forgive." Hannah sighed. "It's no wonder nobody wants me."
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Megan was surprised to hear Hannah's voice. But she had every intention of not letting Hannah know that it was her. However, with the last thing that she said, Megan blurted out, without thinking, "But I want you."
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Hannah jumped. "Megan? Is that you?" Embarrassed, she stood up. "Oh my god." she groaned as she left the confession booth. She just wanted to get out of there. She wanted to get away from everything that reminded her of home.
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Megan stepped out of the confession booth and walked up behind her sister. "That's why dad kicked you out? Seriously? That's bull. I can't believe he would do that to you."
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Tears filled Hannah's eyes. "That wasn't suppose to be you in there. You weren't suppose to know everything. Leave me alone, megan. Please." She was sobbing by the time she said this. She shook her head and tried to walk away. "What am I saying? You don't care. None of you guys care. You said you did and that you'd never hurt me and you did. And I know I hurt you too. So just go away. I don't belong anywhere. I should have never let my stupid guard down with you people."
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Megan stepped in front of her sister. "I never meant to hurt you, and I deserved everything you did to me. I wish that I could take it back. But I can't. I'm sorry, though, and I do love you."
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Hannah looked down and back up at her. "It's not like it's the first time that it's happened. I've gotten kicked out of every home that I've ever been in. I don't know why I thought this would be different. I think we were fooling ourselves thinking that I actually belonged." Hannah wiped her eyes. "Don't worry about me. I can always find my social worker. Foster care isn't that bad. They'll probably send me to a group home." Hannah didn't want to go back into the system, but she also didn't want to freeze to death.
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"Don't worry about you? Are you serious? Hannah, you're my sister. I love you. I can't just let you leave. Isn't there some place you could just crash? At least until dad cools off?" Megan replied, softly.
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Hannah scoffed. "Dad cools off? It's not even about that. I don't care if he's hot or cold. I'm never going back. I let my guard down once and I'm not doing it again. I hate him. I hate all of you. I look out for Numero uno. I don't know where I'm gonna crash but I don't care. Maybe I won't stay in Toronto. There's nothing here for me, because everyone in this world is just gonna let me down anyways."
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Hannah was freezing. This Spring, it had snowed more than it rained. Why it had to wait until after Hannah was back out in the cold to start snowing, she didn't know. She had spent the entire day at the Dot until the owner told her that they had to close. And the second she stepped out, snowflakes started to fall. Shivering, she walked the streets of Toronto searching for shelter and warmth. She didn't even have a coat on, and there was no way that she could go back to Mrs. Stone's Finally, she spotted a church. Hannah didn't really want to go in but she was pretty desperate. She walked to the front, warming her hands by the candles. When she spotted the confession booth, she paused. Something about her situation made her want to pray, and she figured she should probably confess before she tried to pray. She opened the door and stepped inside. She was still freezing when she spoke, her voice shook. "Forgive me father for I have sinned. It's been like 6 years since I've been inside a church and I don't think I've ever confessed. But all the shit I've done in the past it's like to much to remember to tell so I'm just gonna give you an update of what's happened this week. I don't know if it's suppose to work like that, but oh well. I'm pregnant. I've been pregnant for the past 5 1/2 months. I just didn't tell anybody. I haven't been very nice to my family. I kind of beat the crap out of my baby sister. I don't even know why I did it anymore. I love her. I really do. And sometimes, she can be my role model. I know I'm probably a total psycho for hurting her like that. And you know, she's not the only one. My dad kicked me out when he found out I was pregnant and the principal of my school took me in. And she's this really amazing woman and what did I do? I stole all the money that she and everyone else in the place had and took off. And I know what you're thinking. That's alot to be asking forgiveness for and believe me. You don't even want to know the rest of my life story. I've probably done to much for even God to forgive." Hannah sighed. "It's no wonder nobody wants me."
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Megan was surprised to hear Hannah's voice. But she had every intention of not letting Hannah know that it was her. However, with the last thing that she said, Megan blurted out, without thinking, "But I want you."
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Hannah jumped. "Megan? Is that you?" Embarrassed, she stood up. "Oh my god." she groaned as she left the confession booth. She just wanted to get out of there. She wanted to get away from everything that reminded her of home.
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Megan stepped out of the confession booth and walked up behind her sister. "That's why dad kicked you out? Seriously? That's bull. I can't believe he would do that to you."
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Tears filled Hannah's eyes. "That wasn't suppose to be you in there. You weren't suppose to know everything. Leave me alone, megan. Please." She was sobbing by the time she said this. She shook her head and tried to walk away. "What am I saying? You don't care. None of you guys care. You said you did and that you'd never hurt me and you did. And I know I hurt you too. So just go away. I don't belong anywhere. I should have never let my stupid guard down with you people."
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Megan stepped in front of her sister. "I never meant to hurt you, and I deserved everything you did to me. I wish that I could take it back. But I can't. I'm sorry, though, and I do love you."
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Hannah looked down and back up at her. "It's not like it's the first time that it's happened. I've gotten kicked out of every home that I've ever been in. I don't know why I thought this would be different. I think we were fooling ourselves thinking that I actually belonged." Hannah wiped her eyes. "Don't worry about me. I can always find my social worker. Foster care isn't that bad. They'll probably send me to a group home." Hannah didn't want to go back into the system, but she also didn't want to freeze to death.
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"Don't worry about you? Are you serious? Hannah, you're my sister. I love you. I can't just let you leave. Isn't there some place you could just crash? At least until dad cools off?" Megan replied, softly.
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Hannah scoffed. "Dad cools off? It's not even about that. I don't care if he's hot or cold. I'm never going back. I let my guard down once and I'm not doing it again. I hate him. I hate all of you. I look out for Numero uno. I don't know where I'm gonna crash but I don't care. Maybe I won't stay in Toronto. There's nothing here for me, because everyone in this world is just gonna let me down anyways."
