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Post by charlie on Jul 11, 2009 13:07:49 GMT -8
Charlie had walked her from school lost in no wheres land, because thats where she was lately. Not to mention she felt like a nobody. Guess thats what lifes cycle took you through. She listened to the annoying bell anounce her precence and rolled her eyes slowly and over dramatically as usual. She walked into the back and put her bag down. She peered around but didn't see anyone Great did dad forget me yet again? She might as well have just walked home. She felt eyes on her and shook her head. The people that worked for her dad didn't seem to like her. Then again she didn't really seem to get to know them either so who cared?
Walking out with a strawberry shake she sat in the far back corner. The usual for Ms. Charlie Ann and nothing beyond that. She took out her phone. No missed calls. Her minutes ran wild with no one calling her lately. Ding ding ding! School was out alright the bell just kept going and going and going like the freakin' energizer bunny. Good greif! |
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 11, 2009 20:19:37 GMT -8
Megan really didn't like how things were going for her right now. First, being snatched by her father, then having sex with JJ? Okay, so maybe she acted as though she'd wanted it. And maybe at the time, she did kind of want it. It just...for once she hadn't been forced to have sex like her biological father had done to her for years. Maybe she just wanted to decide on it...for herself. And without a single thought, not thinking about the guy whom she liked nor the girl that JJ was married to, Megan decided to have sex.
One word of advice. Just because you had been raped is not a good reason to go ahead and decide to have sex. You'll just regret it. And it was really beginning to get to her.
Megan walked up to the counter at The Dot, and ordered herself a chocolate milkshake. But she really didn't feel like being around a whole bunch of people, so she went to sit outside.
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Post by charlie on Jul 13, 2009 6:31:06 GMT -8
Why did Charlie have to look up? Why oh why because now there was a million evil thoughts running through her head about this Del Rassi girl. Oh Charlie knew getting someone back was wrong and immature but she was fifteen and still liked the thought of it more then being nice. She took a sip of her milkshake and smirked. Wasn't she lucky dad owned the place? Yeah! She was. She got up bringing her milkshake with her and walked behind the counter. Watching as someone came out to take Megans order. "I've got it." she said innocently to the worker as he walked away back into the kitchen.
Charlie leaned her arms on the counter from the other side. "Welcome to the dot how can I be of service to you?" she asked looking the girl up and down. She wanted it eh? Well she was going to get a little something from both sides. This was going to be good. |
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 14, 2009 9:40:55 GMT -8
Megan looked up at the girl. Oh, she knew Charlie. Not very well, of course. But she knew her none-the-less. JJ's girlfriend. Did she know? Megan sure hoped not. It was bad enough that it had happened. Why did she do that? It was so stupid! "Yeah. Could I just have a hamburger, please? And a Pepsi." She definetely had no idea that Charlie knew.
Oh, yeah. Things weren't gonna turn out very good. And Megan already hated herself for it. The night after it had happened, Megan wouldn't come out of her room. She stayed in there all night, crying. That's the worst thing about having your innocence ripped away from you at the age of six. You tend to rush into having sex with anyone, because, for once, it feels good to decide to have sex for yourself and not because you had been forced to.
Only problem was, she wasn't emotionally ready to have sex. With anyone. It was the biggest mistake of her life. And she truly hated herself for it ever happening.
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Post by charlie on Jul 14, 2009 10:38:13 GMT -8
Charlie wrote her order down and got her her drink acting casual for now. She hung the slip of paper up so they'd make her food. She returned and set the drink on the counter. "You sure thats all you want?" she asked eying her. Her original plan to kick Megan out and tell her to not come back ever failed her when she thought she'd torture the little house wrecker. She was going to make her admit to what she did then cause some serious trouble because an anxiety rush all at once couldn't be good for the baby.
Charlie folded her arms anticipating the girls confession. She already knew and broke it off with JJ, but that didn't mean anything to her right now. The purpose was right in front of her and she was going to get to the bottom of it with the girl right now. It was going to take a lot more then Megan's "innocent," little face to get her out of this once. |
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 14, 2009 15:36:45 GMT -8
Megan nodded. "Um--yeah, that's all, thank you." She wanted to tell her. A part of her told her that it was the right thing to do. But she was just so overcome with fear. Something that she felt alot recently. And she hated feeling that why. What would Charlie say? Would she completely hate Megan? Or would she understand if she just knew the whole truth. Megan never really wanted it. She knew it. And yet, she did it anyway.
Looking up, Megan smiled, softly at the girl. But she had no idea of what to say. For some reason it felt a little bit awkward and Megan wasn't at all sure why. Okay, so maybe she knew the reason behind that feeling. And maybe someday...soon...she could even confess to everything. Right?
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Post by charlie on Jul 15, 2009 14:54:07 GMT -8
"Really you don't have anything to say to me at all?" she asked tensing up she was starting to get upset with this whole little smiley thing going was the girl that dumb really? Did she think that Charlie wouldn't find out that she didn't know that she actually worked here while she was pregnant. Did she ever even conerse with Megan Del Rassi. No she did not! This wasn't pleasent conversation. This was getting everything out there and if she wasn't pregnant she'd pry beat the girls ass, because she was that kind of person. "...you sure you don't want a side order of my husband?" she asked her glaring.
So it slipped and once it did she wished it hadn't slipped like that. She wished she might have said boyfriend of maybe her JJ, but no whatever it was out there and the girl would know she did something wrong. She wasn't going to give her her food either until she manned up. "..wait i think you already did that right?" she asked man she was on a roll with letting her thoughts come out of her mouth unwillingly. Then again she had a right she was hurt. |
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Megan Julia Del Rossi
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 15, 2009 17:48:14 GMT -8
Megan just bit her bottom lip, when she was asked if she had any more to say. But no words came from her mouth. It was hard, really. Megan was ashamed of what she'd done with JJ. And she would love nothing more to take it back. But no one, other than her own family, had none the crap she had gone through.
But she just looked up at Charlie with what she had said next. "N--no." She muttered. Megan looked down at the tabletop and then stood up, staring back at Charlie. "That's not fair, Charlie. You don't know what I was going through. You have no--" she shook her head, slightly. "--no idea what it's like to be me. And it's not like you'd ever understand." She could fel tears stinging her eyes. She had to get out of there. Megan didn't want to cry, not here, not in front of anyone.
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Post by charlie on Jul 16, 2009 10:50:16 GMT -8
Charlie watched the girl sit there and ponder on words which wouldn't come out of her mouth and kind of grew agrivated. Sure she didn't know a think about her but she didn't care either. Not the sligthest bit. Why? She ruined her life that she had set up for her. She wasn't the only one but she was one of the girls on the list and the only one she knew of so she didn't think for one second about her. She didn't think about her when she slept with her --babbys daddy.
Charlie watched her stand up making a big scene in her dads restraunt. "sit..." she said sternly. "I'm not here to make you leave." she added then she responded to her comments it wasn't fair she didn't know what she went through. "Your right I know nothing about you nor do I care...but you know what you did and you'll have to live with the guilt of wrecking my family." she said. "You think I want to be pregnant now? You think your tears can make things better? No they can't now im going to be a mom all by myself just because you can't keep your pants on...I knew what I got myself into when I had sex but you....your just like all the other girls.." she said and she got the cheeseburger and put it in front of her. "Understand that." she replied before she walked out from behind the counter and went to her seat where her shake was and sat down with a huff. Did it make her feel better? No. She put her head down on the table and felt a tear fall from her eyes now, but it was a start. |
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 16, 2009 10:55:59 GMT -8
Megan sat back down and watched as Charlie walked off. It's not like she hadn't beaten herself about it already. And she'd already felt guilty, and maybe always would. She pushed the plate away from her, suddenly not feeling very hungry anymore. Sighing Megan just stood up, ready to leave the dot just to get away from everything.
But instead, she did something that was either brave, or maybe stupid. She wasn't so sure yet. Megan turned back around and went over to Charlie's table, sitting across from her. "Could-" She looked down at the tabletop, her hands resting on top. "Could we talk? In private?"
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Post by charlie on Jul 16, 2009 15:05:10 GMT -8
charlie was this person but she wasn't this person. she should have known jj would have done this to her sooner or later, but she thought he'd be different, but he did the same thing with her and marissa was in her shoe's except charlie wasn't going to go stab the guy just maybe throw divorce papers up she wasn't sure yet. what was it one innocent girl to the next? did he have to break people's hearts. she was unsure why he had that motive but she didn't care anymore well she did but she would never let on that she did. she just sort of sobbed into her arms in belief but disbelief.
then she heard foot steps. great he was here wasn't he. she felt somoeones precence but didn't look up suprised to hear megans voice she just wiped her tears onto her arms secretly even though it was pretty obvious that she had been crying. she looked up but to the side out the window. she didn't think megan deserved to be looked in the eye. talk?she wanted to talk? whyy charlie just shrugged "i guess." she said in her small voice. she didn't care what she had to say really but she thought she deserved to say something...maybee |
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 17, 2009 10:27:32 GMT -8
Megan bit down on her bottom lip. "I know that there is nothing that I can even say to change anything, or to even get you to forgive me. And you shouldn't. It wasn't like we were friends or anything." Well, it was true. And Megan didn't expect forgiveness. She knew that she didn't deserve it. "I do want to say just how sorry I am. I don't know why I even did it. It's not like I ever liked JJ, and I shouldn't. He never treated me nicely."
So, why had she done it? If she'd been thinking, Megan most likely would have never done so. "And I don't want to sound...mean, but shouldn't you really hate him? I'm sure that I'm not the first. He just took advantage of me. I was in a pretty bad place, and had just basically gone through Hell."
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Post by charlie on Jul 17, 2009 15:40:13 GMT -8
Charlie listened closley the girl was pretty much right she wasn't sure she would forgive her but she wasn't going to hate her because she only heard good things about her from her new friend Matt. Megans brother, but she wasn't sure she would ever talk to her other then this. She shrugged her shoulders. "Look, Im sorry about ruining your appetite and you're pry right its not like we were friends but maybe one day I might learn to forgive you don't say never.." she said biting her lip. "I know it wasn't your idea." she said in a low tone.
"I do hate him..." she said making it clear. "...while im mad at you I want to thank you..in a sense.." she said and looked down. "..im too young for this anyway maybe ill just give it up for adoption move on..." she was mumbling to herself now. she didn't know what she was going to do what was going to happen but she right now was pretty sure she wasnt' going to be going back to joseph james tiberius yorke. |
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 17, 2009 16:12:26 GMT -8
"I really am sorry. I do regret it. I guess-well, when you've gone through what I've been through-It was just nice not to actual be forced into anything. Not really at least." Megan explained. It wasn't like Megan was such a horrible person. She would never purposely go and ruin somebody's life.
Megan smiled, softly. She just wanted Charlie to know that she was really truly sorry. "Thank me?" she asked. "You know, giving up the baby may be a good idea. Not trying to sound mean or anything. But-you'd miss out on so much in high school. Are you even sure that you're ready to take care of a child?"
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Post by charlie on Jul 17, 2009 16:22:57 GMT -8
charlie was unsure what megan was really saying when she started speaking but she slowly nodded agreeing with her. she was lost in her own little world just like the girl. she shut her eyes for a moment and then opened them looking outside to wear the sun wash shining. then back at megan. she was a nice person or so she heard well like she said earlier or thought earlier. it wasn't like she meant to wreck charlie. that was not her intentions at all.
then she started putting her opinion in and its not like...no charlie did mind. who was she to ask that question. she began to tense up and decided to stand up and leave before she said something she didn't want to. "i think i better go." she said shaking her head some. charlie wasn't speaking to her but she heard and it wasn't her place to say anything. charlie wouldn't have carried a baby if she didn't think she was ready, but giving it up was only a thought. |
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