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Post by Deleted on Jul 15, 2009 21:35:25 GMT -8
Matt sat outside of the Youth Mental Health Group. After all, that was where Megan would be, right? He didn't want to go in and interrupt his sister's session, so instead he sat outside, waiting for her to get down. He looked around and then down at his collection at his feet. A bottle of Vodka, a pack of cigarettes, and a stash of cocaine. With everything that was going on, he wanted to turn into a screwed-up teen just like everyone else who's family broke up. The problem was, he couldn't bring himself to actually open any of his goodies, let alone use them. Maybe Megan could help him. She could be screwed-up when she wanted to be. Maybe all he needed was a little brother-sister time.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 15, 2009 21:46:35 GMT -8
Today, Megan had a one on one session. Sure, a part of Megan really didn't wanna be doing this. And it wasn't like she was being forced to. She just thought that it may help her. Afterall, she'd had a whole lotta shit happen and it was messing her up quite a bit.
So far, she wasn't talking a whole lot in these sessions. It was just too hard for her to yet. She was pretty messed up though. At least she was willing to get help, though, right?
Once her session was finally over, Megan grabbed her bag, walking out of the room. When she walked outside of the building, Megan was surprised to see her brother there. "Matt? What are you doing here?"
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Post by Deleted on Jul 15, 2009 22:08:21 GMT -8
Matt looked up at her and stood up, picking up his wonderful souveneirs and held them out to her. "Pick one?" He knew she was probably thinking he was out of his mind, and maybe he was. But today he just didn't care. "Please? I can't get myself to do them, but maybe if you picked, it would be easier.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 15, 2009 22:19:15 GMT -8
Megan looked down into the bag. "Are you kidding me?" She spoke in a serious tone. Not that it wasn't tempting. She was tempted to. But should she really? This would be a bad path to go down, and she was already screwed-up as it was. She looked back up at her brother. This wasn't like him, so something must be wrong, right? He would never do something like this. She took the bag from his hands, and took a seat on the bench. "This isn't like you." She grabbed his hand and had him sit down beside her. "Matt, what's wrong?"
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Post by Deleted on Jul 15, 2009 22:29:52 GMT -8
Matt shook his head. "I just want to be normal. Apparently screwed-up is normal nowadays. I mean, look at the life that we're living. The woman who owns the house that we're living in right now is an alcoholic. I don't think I've seen her sober since we've moved in. We got one dad who's leaving with Aidan and our other dad is in bed with another guy. Talk about being screw-up. And now, and you're just gonna love this, we're moving in with the guy he's been in bed with. So I figured since screwed-up is normal, I might as well join them. But the problem is my stupid conscious is getting in the way. But you-you're conscious doesn't stop you from being screwed up as you want to be. So you can teach me? Help me turn into a junkie, or an alcoholic, or even destroy my lungs because that sounds better than anything we're about to do."
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 15, 2009 22:38:59 GMT -8
Megan looked over at Matt, as he said everything. "Wait. What?" Of course, since she'd been gone, this was all new to her. "I--I didn't know. Are you serious?" But saying that she was screwed-up herself, she kind of took offense to that. "I am not screwed up, Matt. I just have a lot going on. And you-you should listen to your conscience. Because, Matt, this is dangerous. This-I can't do. I just can't. Listen to me. If you had any sense, one-so-ever, you will not touch this crap. I mean it. Because, I-even though I may not always show it-I love you. And I don't want you to end up destroying your life. Not like I've already done."
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Post by Deleted on Jul 15, 2009 22:53:47 GMT -8
"Well, I got to do something." Matt insisted. "I can't just be perfect anymore. I'm tired of just going to school, and making perfect grades and only getting in trouble, what, twice a year. I can't do this anymore. We're about to move in with a drill sergeant for God's sake. You sayyou'd destroyed your life? Good, congrantulations to you. Now help me destroy mine. I know you can do it. You can do anything. You're that incredible."
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 15, 2009 23:15:56 GMT -8
Megan shook her head. "No." She said firmly. "I will not help you destroy your life." Megan stood up, looking down at her brother. "Just take my advice and don't. I mean, look where being screwed up got me? Now, I'm talking to some shrink because of all the shit that has happened to me. And I will not let you end up the same way. I mean it." Megan picked up the bag. "I'm getting rid of it."
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Post by Deleted on Jul 15, 2009 23:20:26 GMT -8
Matt jumped up. "No!" He grabbed her arm. "You can't! I paid JJ Yorke too much money to just get rid of it!" Matt knew it was risky, paying JJ for anything. He was his enemy afterall, JJ betrayed even his own friend when he got bored enough and Matt didn't even want to think about what would happen if Ben found out. He just wanted to do something, to prove to himself that he could still feel pain because right now he felt numb and he didn't like it one bit.
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 15, 2009 23:25:20 GMT -8
Megan glared at him when he grabbed her arm. "Don't make me hurt you." she retorted. "I will if I have to, to keep this shit away from her." Using her free hand, she shoved him away from her, but not to hard. "I don't care what you say! I'm getting rid of it! Whether you like it or not!"
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Post by Deleted on Jul 15, 2009 23:30:05 GMT -8
Matt glared. "I didn't hurt you when I found out about you sleeping with him." he retorted. He felt like what he had done wasn't any worse than her hooking up with a guy. "Do you need me to buy you a pregnancy test?" he added, snidely. "Give it back. If you don't, I'll just get more from him, and this will be the last time I'll trust you enough to tell you anything."
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 15, 2009 23:35:26 GMT -8
"You have no fucking right to say that about me! Maybe I just know you'll regret it! Because guess what?! I regret every fucking day that goes by for what I did with that creep!" She said, pretty loudly. "You don't get what I had been going through. You don't know what it's fucking like to be raped, to lose your innocence at 6. And yet never experiencing what it's like to choose for yourself!" Megan could feel tears sprikling beneath her eyes, but she didn't want to cry. She'd down that enough lately. "I'd rather you hate me for your whole fucking life, then to end up losing you to death!"
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Post by Deleted on Jul 15, 2009 23:43:10 GMT -8
"So what, I have to go and get myself raped for you to be willing to do anything with me? Fine, I'll do it. So where do I go? The Ravine, or is there some special rapist hangout? Or do you want to do to me what your dad did to you? Because at this point, I don't care. Can't you get that through your head. I don't fucking give a damn what happens to me. I just want something to do."
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Post by Megan Julia Del Rossi on Jul 15, 2009 23:45:52 GMT -8
Megan narrowed her eyes at what Matt had said to her. "How dare you say that to me?!" She was beyond pissed at him at this point, and couldn't help but slap him across the face, hard.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 15, 2009 23:49:41 GMT -8
Matt put his hand to his cheek and then glaring at her slapping her right back. He didn't even know why he slapped her. He would have never normally hit a girl. But she wasn't a girl, she was Megan. As soon as he hit her, it started raining.
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