baby don't break my heart slow (katie)

Matt....
I am so sorry. Nothing I can say can ever justify what I did to you. I really did never want to hurt you. I think you may have even been my soul mate. I guess I screwed-up, though. That's all I ever do. You can do better than me...better than some anorexic loser like myself. I can't even blame you for hating me. Afterall, even I hate myself. I don't even want to get better. What's the point? Without you, I'm just...I'm completely lost. It's true what they say, you know. You never know what you have until you lose it. Maybe someday you can forgive me. Even if we never see eachother again. I do love you, even if you don't love me anymore. Here's your ring back. Maybe you can get your money back for it. Or...keep the ring and give it to some other lucky girl. I guess this is goodbye, though. You won't be hearing from me again. Maybe if I'm lucky, this stupid illness will kill me, because without you...I don't think I can find the strength to even live.
Marissa

She had put it into an envelope and stuck the ring that was given to her inside as well.

Marissa walked to Matt's house, the letter in one hand, her guitar in the other. How she managed to get away from her dad for a while was beyond her. She stuck the letter into the mailbox. After that, Marissa went to the park and sat down on the bench. She sat there for quite a while before pulling out her guitar. She strummed the strings and began singing the first song that came to her head.

"I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time that things got rocky

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken do you mean
Do you mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth than have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you'd sing to me
Every time that things got rocky

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken do you say
Do you say what you mean
When you say our love could last forever

Cause I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth than have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

You would run around and lead me on forever
While I stay at home still thinking we're together
I wanted our love to last forever

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth than have to say goodbye
And I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow
Baby don't you break my heart slow"

By the end of the song, though, Marissa was in tears. She accidently dropped her guitar to the ground, not even caring really. She just wanted her Matt back. She wanted her brother too. She loved them both and they were everything to her. And now? She just felt completely lost. She brought her knees up to her chest, and started to completely break down. The first time in weeks. She hadn't since Scott was in a coma, only because she wanted to be strong for everyone else. And Matt? She had been afraid that if she had started to cry, than she might not be able to stop.