she's in love with the boy (matt)

Matt sat in his room, reading a novel. There wasn't much to do anymore, considering he was grounded for life, from everything. Except for food and water. He normally didn't even like to read, especially this kind of book. But he was sure that Megan wouldn't care if he borrowed her romance novel for a while. He had locked himself in his room, and had been reading for hours. The events that were unfolding in the book were starting to make him cry. "Don't go with him." he told the character. "You're gonna end up hurt. He's a total pyscho." Of course, the heroin wasn't going to listen to him. It's not like she could actually hear him. He had heard JJ outside the house a little while earlier, yelling out at him to come finish this fight and had ignored him. But when his window was broken, he picked up the rock, angrily. "What the hell do you want from me JJ?!" He screamed out the window, as he went up to it. When he saw Marissa, he frowned. That wasn't JJ!

"Did you really have to break my window?" Matt just had to ask. He sighed, "Yeah, you're right. We do need to talk. I'll be right down." Matt knew that he couldn't start off a marriage, or even continue the relationship, with lies. He was going to tell her everything. Hopefully, she wouldn't hate him. As he left the house, he told her, "We should be alone. Let's go to the park or something." When he saw her bag, though, his mind left what he was going to tell her. "Are you going somewhere?"

Matt looked at her. "No. you have to go home. Running away isn't going to solve anything. Besides, you'd never see me again if you ran away." When he said that, he paused, and looked down. He wasn't sure if he could tell her now. She needed him. Shaking his head, he said, "No. We can go for a walk and talk, but you have to go home afterwards. Deal?"

Matt took the papers inside. "Marissa...We can't just run away and get married. I can't. I've got too much responsibilities right now. My sister's need me. They really, really need me. Especially Megan. She's going through some really tough stuff right now. I don't think she would be able to handle it if you big brother was suddenly gone. And Hannah's not really doing much better either. I'm not too sure whats wrong but something definetely wrong. I can't just leave Hayleigh either. She's my baby sister. And if I leave, she could get seriously hurt. And my dad might be out of his mind right now, but he's completely lost without dad. Somebody's gotta act like the man of the house around here, and if I leave, I don't know what's going to happen. And trust me, you don't wanna marry me. I'm not the kind of guy that you want to spend the rest of your life with. I'm made way too many mistakes, without even thinking. Just trust me on this and listen to your dad. Parents sometimes don't like people for a reason. And you deserve so much better than me." Matt sighed, and kissed her cheek. "Go home, Marissa. It's for the best. I promise you."

Matt looked at her, and shook his head. "Marissa, please, don't cry." Tears smarted in his eyes himself. He wanted to hug her, but he held back. "I'll punch myself if you start crying. I'm already about to beat myself up about what I did to you. If anybody else hurt you the way I did, I'd be attacking them in a second. I'm a hypocrite and a liar and I justact to impulsively for my own good. You're going to want to break up with me anyways when you hear what I've done. So just save yourself the heartache and go home. I love you, Marissa, so much and that's why sometimes when you love someone you have to let them go. I think this is one of those times. Your dad hates me. And my dad isn't too happy with you right now either. And I don't want to do anything without their approval. Combine that with recent events and I think this is just better. I promise that we'll be together. I just don't think that we can right now." By the time Matt was done saying all of this, tears were streaming down his face. He didn't want this anymore than she did. And he couldn't help crying.

Matt grabbed her shoulders and shook her gently. "Forget?! How am I suppose to do that Marissa? We have way to much history together! I even made the news by stabbing JJ over you. Now, how am I suppose to be with you when I know that I'm lying to you? How are we going to have an honest relationship when I slept with Megan and didn't tell you. And I got mad at mallory and touched her breast and didn't tell you. Do you see the problem here?! I can't be with you because I'll end up hurting you!"

Matt looked at her. "Are you not listening to me? I cheat-what do you mean that it was based on a total lie at first? I was in love with you since 7th grade. Admitting that to you is the first time I've ever been honest with you." he wondered what she could possibly have meant. Did she use him?